shermin ♥

2009-01-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

moved/

shermintayyy.blogspot.com

2008-11-20T15:43:00.003+08:00

was very satisfied with my makeup,love my hair do and dress
everything was so perfect except my heels.
my feet died way before the start of the event
imagine a 4inch and a size smaller ):
but yea, i overlook that...

&heart; love my hair please.

again..
wedding srsly isnt as awesome as you thought it is.

the cleaner...

me trying to stand in the smoking thing w/o my shoes!
so unglam! HAHAH!

CHEF TERRY :D

MY FAVOURITE FAVOURITE CHEFSSS!

2008-11-12T16:37:00.003+08:00

i know you got shock when you saw this picture,
please be nice and forgive me.
i got too many thick skin people in my life.
ohhh! this is BOBBY! fyi.

ff came over to stay over that night.
explored our hair and make up.
slept only ard one and woke up at 3.30AM in the morning.
hoping everything will go well.
but, almost everything got cock up.
-.-

whole day was nice and tiring.
was my first time being jie mei...
and the groom must have felt damn fucking lucky all
the bridesmaid are newbieee!!!!

shall let the picture talk ;D
the very first picture is alson.
i think he is really cute and obedient ♥

the bluff to console

2008-10-06T11:23:00.006+08:00

hi hello (:
have been away for awhile i know
busy working, just like my ff because being poor really suck.
nowadays even when we wanna go la kopi
we must think of cheap hangout like some budget fools.
SHIT!

danny's birthday party last tuesday.
was it tuesday or monday.
never mind, i cant remember.
throughout my holidays, i am always confuse w my monday to sundays.
HAHAHAHHAHA
whatever it is, his party was pretty awesome.
all of us laughed like some crazy ass.
has been so long since ff and i laughed like that.
jokes works way better than the laughing gas shit.

here are the pictures :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAT!

LOVE DAWN INSIDE OUT

2008-10-06T04:16:00.004+08:00

Today was a super hectic but fun day.
Met Dawn for swimming at 9am.
I was LATE!
I don't know why she can wake up so early everytime!
Sorry hor Dawn.
I know I'm always late.
Forgive me okay?

I always like to splurge on useless things.
Idk why.
Dawn always scold me for buying useless things.
I plan to buy portable dvd player,
then she scold!
WHY SIALL.
I always forget her schedule.
Then I will tiao kang ask her everyday and irritate her.
hehehe.

I think Dawn is the bestest creation!
My alarm clock and finance adviser!

(:

that was dawn trying to pretend to be me. smart people will know its exactly the opposite!

FUCK DAWN INSIDE OUT.

2008-09-26T11:12:00.002+08:00

this stupid woman hack into my account and make me sound like her maid. this women ate some LION heart, never die before! whohhooooooooo. i am working w her later and i love seeing her cb face. actually she is very irritating but mayb because i very very long never see her so i miss her. (:

CCCB. stop calling me ah huat.
if not i will call you ah phoon.
LAWYER LAWYER LAWYER!

vice versa

2008-09-26T10:52:00.007+08:00

26.6 IMAGINE ME WITHOUT YOU.

Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused

dying,surviving and still counting ♥

Finally an update.

2008-09-25T04:37:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Just a short post(:
I have been really busy working.
My ff's house is so hard to clean!
But I love seeing her cutie pie face everyday!

Goodbye!

Give it back to me!

2008-09-20T17:36:00.002+08:00

hey!
i know a promise a super long post, but i am busy really searching for different thing each time i go online and by the time i am done, the computer has alr suck up all my energy.

i am at my cousins place now.
she playing my psp and i am playing her computer.
so a short/wordy update.
no pictures bcause cameras at home.

okay since my last update............

( i know dun like to read blogs with no breaks, but know what? LP DUN CAREEEEEE )

- i met up w my love nadera, we lunched at breeks, please pronouce it as bergs. you will make our day. she dint bring her camera so we used mine & apparently i cant seem to meet her online so the pictures are still w me and shes getting pissed. HEHEHEHEHEHHE.

- celebrated mums birthday w uncle jackson. had dinner together and that dinner was simply awesome! thats not the point her comes the important thing, when we were going home... this hamster/ or whatever shit you call it fell from idk which floor. i think any pet would have die or got itself injure. but it was still alive and kicking lah! so, i brought it home. i scared cat will eat what. and then.................... i cant bear to give it away now although it is such a hassle now and i was v determine to give it away on the day i pick it up.

- i finally got my psp. its not new. its not slim. so the moral of the story is..................... ITS SECOND HAND. hahahahhhahahha. but still in very good condition. and a psp fool like me cant find games and i got super irritated! its dumb to have a psp and have no games. -.-

- i havent seen my FF, DAWN ONG for many many many many days. i miss her fucking face. although not see-ing her gives me peace. HEHEHEHEH. SIAO EH, WA MISS LI

- i am gonna chiong alot at work the coming next few weeks.
- my icecream cake was shit.
- kay bye, i wanna go find games!

love you people!

replies:
germaine: lolololol! lau sai dun nid lahh. crazy -.- hahahah. dating? o.o whennnnn? =X oie. which baby not cute? huhhhh? whichhhhhh? =.=
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. no no no no, you not dating. my bad my bad! you this baby not cute lah!

NADERANADERA: ehhhhh you were online, how come never send me the pictures? >:(
not fated lah. HAHAHAH! eh, you must bake for me okayyyy ♥

Jing: Hmm.. Whenever I come online the first blog I view is yours followed by dawn's. Updated!
:DDDD yayyy! i more special then dawn. yayy yayyy! dawn, LP MORE SPECIAL THAN YOU. eh, chen huijing! i miss you. we meet go gai gai okay? (:

shaun: lalalal cupcakes
hey! hello mr cute! :D that cupcake is pretty but too sweet. /:

dawn: HK LA. Thought you got blog. KNN
get lost lah. i blog alr lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

nic: YOYO..link back la.. dont fishmonger leh..^^
HELLLO. yes, will link you (:

random

2008-09-16T09:59:00.002+08:00

hi loves.
i will just reply to tags today because i have got pictures to show to go together with my post, but not today lah. most likely friday ;D

germaine: horrrrrrr! go mrs sim's place never tell me -.-
wei. you also never say go must tell you? i lausai need to tell you? HAHAHAAH. & you go dating also never tell me. HORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! but i tell you kayy, her baby soooo cute!

bob: unknown is?? =)
nowadays its a trend to act cool and secretive. HAHAHAHHA :D

Jing: Getting more pro in baking. Sign up for pastry course next year.
baking cost are really expensive. are you talking about the course in that damn school? no way! that school suck. &&& please update your blog after your roller coaster ride is over! ♥ kinda miss youuuu.

Atiqah: hello!!yummy cupcakes!!
hello! that's mrs sim's creation (:

dawn: siao eh, happy belated bday. sorry that I am 2 months 9 days late. Will celebrate with u next year I promise.
NINABEI. you very lame you know a not. you still owe me a party on the yacht. ( i know how to spell alr okay! ) eh, wa ai eat toriQ. when want go with me? you now busy siol.

U think she will tell u m: Aiai
what you talking? trying to act cool again

you lost the key.

2008-09-13T11:49:00.005+08:00

helllllllllllo!
just a short update to prevent it from rotting.
i bake cupcakes yesterday over at mrs sim's place.
baby dana was super super cute.
i am the first outsider that can carry her okay!
yes, i am proud and she smiles at me..
awwwwwwwwwwww.

okay i am off to source for recipes.
i am meeting nadera laterrrrr.
♥

replies: NADERA of course happy lahhhh :D eh, i want go supermarket. HAHAHAHAH. ZIA this time i am not really prepared. so yea, my bfd is gone only can depend on afd and ofa :/

changed

2008-09-09T10:07:00.002+08:00

i will try to make this a long post because i havent been blogging for long and i wun be blogging for sometime after today as well :D thats because..... right after 5.30PM today MY LONG AWAITED SCHOOL HOLIDAYS ARE HEREEEEEEEEEEEEE ♥ nonono, you dun know how much i look forward to this holiday. finally, i am free from that helly place for one month and 3 days :D therefore, no internet treatment alr!

i am gonna chiong hard at work this holiday,
so i can (secret) and eat and get many many new clothes ;D

i thought its only a trend for friends to stalk friends blog.
i dint know the trend has widen and now..
mother stalk their daughters blog.
then tag with unknown name.
dun think idk horrr. i just dun want to say. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

okay, nothing special for the past few days,
just skipping school, rotting at home.
oh! last weekend, i went batam.
i will never wanna go there again.
REALLY.
thats also the first time i find it hard to spend money.
-.-
still, i am craving for the rootbeer float from A&W.

i am currently keeping an electronic pet.
thats if you know what i meant.
and this damn pet is a sucker.
he sleeps late in the night and only wake up close to noon
or after noon, keep shitting! and i dun really pay attention
to it cause i am kinda occupied the past 2 days.
so when i dun clear the shit it will fall shit.
if these continue, within one week its gonna die i think.
HAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHA.

my dad gave me extra 10$ this morning.
happy me woke up and couldnt sleep back :DDDDD

having my accounts paper later.
wish me luck!
♥
i will be back as soon as i can.
or as soon as my hand itch for the keyboard!

true colours.

2008-09-04T09:48:00.005+08:00

i woke up late today because i want to go to school late but my dad send me to school and i ended up on time! and i am here for my excel results lah, then its not out -.- fuck right! when did i take my paper? around july/august.. i cant remember.

i know i havent been blogging proper for very long.
recently i have nth to say? HAHAHAHAH/
i am having steamboat tonightttttttt!

i am super engross with my luco ruco.
daniel's psp is making me a happy girl :DDDDDDD
byeee!
♥

:D

2008-09-03T10:20:00.003+08:00

WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
kay, the paper was easy.
besides that the stupid computer was cock up.
bobby ;D.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

kay, goodbye!

2008-09-02T19:04:00.001+08:00

outta sudden i just feel so emotionally unwell again. yes, i know she cares and all. but i just need my space.

it changes every single minute

2008-09-02T10:27:00.004+08:00

WOWWW.
i am seeing so many people with their iphones in their hand.
envy like shit.
keep in your bag lah. why must take outttt?
i dun have you knowwwwww.

having my final office exam tmr.
YAYYY!
quite confident for this paper and i pray hard like
crazy the computer i am using tmr will just obey me
and be good! (:

i am gonna 'just pass' my BFD for sure.
so i must do good in office and average for accounts.
if i ever fail any one of them, i wanna get out of here!

my shampoo smells like fruit. HAHAHAHA.

stop giving me balloons and bursting them yourself even before i catch hold of them. this is bad, really. dun come to close or make things like a daily routine. i will fall real bad when you stop doing all these stuffs. i am starting to get use to it again. but i am doing self talk at the same time (:

edits/
i just edited my post lahhhhh.
then connection gone and lost!
NNB.

i am lazy to retype.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

once again,you finally remember your words. ♥

2008-08-30T12:13:00.007+08:00

i know i said i wun be blogging.
HAHAHAH.
i am getting back on my track alr (:
still trying but things have been well.

( i wanna do the tarot card thing leis )

NIHON MURA SUCKS LIKE SHIT.
the gym was way betttterrrr.
HAHAHAHAH/

me and my ff love bento box.
we love having high tea there cause we are the
poorest taitais everrrr.
we love crystal jade's mango pudding.
okay. that one very nice.

teachers day yesterday.
i had my 1.20$ bee hoon soto w many many chilli.
then swensens for dinner.
i was actually complaining cus i only wanted brownies.
but i enjoyed the company alot.
i laughed like insane.
and i know they miss my laughter. HAHAHAH.
JAMS. hit breast hit breast!

still i want my brownies lah fuckeerrr.

i want new bags.
i really really running out of bags.
i want new clothes.
when was the last time i bought new tops?
324235324321 yrs ago alr siol.
i want new shoes.

i really regret not working much during august.
or else i will be damn rich during my holidays lah.
i am going to be poor like some bloody begger.

i am going batam next weeek!
but i have no idea how much golds i should change.

i wanna eat stingrayyyyyyyyy ♥

i know this post is random shit.
but i dun care. BYE!

DAWN: SEE LAN AH. you also never come see what shit? ehh. look at your tag. so many ******* . can you please be gentle not? huhhhh? see lah, you change lp even my mother also say! TLLM.

reading through my emails again. and i found this picture. i think this picture is so dman funny. it think its taken in 2006. we had our baking enrichment. hahahahha. thats robin and that fucking toad. ( click for clearer view! )

sorry doesnt cure my pain

2008-08-28T09:32:00.003+08:00

WA XIM PAIN LIKE FUCK.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i dun want it this way anymore.

when you see me crying over you.
it means you are so important to me.
it pains my heart, no matter what decision i make.
and now its pains my heart in whatever decision you are going to make. the waiting time itself is killing me. i am not used to your so cold tone. and so short message you know?

i wanna shut myself.
prolly not going to blog for the next few days or so.

2008-08-27T14:14:00.002+08:00

so does that mean i am important now.
are you gonna get it over and done with.
or put me through it all over again?

leave me alone.

2008-08-27T10:15:00.003+08:00

did your mother or biology teacher tell you besides giving you liver problem and slow reaction and whatever there is, alcohol also gives you confidence and courage, makes you damn hyper and talkative, makes you laugh at the slightest joke?

i got it done but i feel really painful.

you wait.

2008-08-26T10:29:00.004+08:00

late for school yesterday.
and i went home early.
changed and met ff to study.
yes the word is study.
she say : very sian hor? we so fast have to chiong for Alevels.

she had her magazine.
tell me will she study?
in less than 1 hour i think.
she suggested movie.
i also abit wanna watch, so we pack up and go.
but no movie.
so we mac, watsons , phoon huat, then her pussy mulam.
okay!
the moral of the story is we dint study.

i am feeling way better today :D
idk why.
but yes. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

i wanna go home early today.
and fuck! are you gonna call and tell me whats the damn plan!?!?!?!

2008-08-25T12:20:00.003+08:00

Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship..

was checking my emails and i came accros this.
i think its gonna help me.
:)

it matters to me

2008-08-25T11:33:00.003+08:00

i am not on a bad mood mode.
i am on a piss off mode.
no no,
i am not on a pissed off mode,
i am on a dun feel like talking mode.
okay. SHUT UP.

i love love love love love my nadera like mad.
was initially looking forward to our date on saturday like siao.
but on my way there it just drop.
and the feeling i have is like,
heavy heart of tears!
):

( i just deleted a long part. )

but yea, at the end of the day.
it was the talks we had that heal me.

now i am craving for my lychee martini!

i know this post is random i dun feel like posting too. but yea, it's here (: i hate school too. sighs.

NAS: self praise equals to no praise lahhh. heard before not? HAHAH :D ________ : who are you? -.- my mood today cannot entertain you leis. you come back another day. i think i know you who. (: DAWN: dun so vulgar. later we attack wrong person.

daily dosage

2008-08-21T10:03:00.002+08:00

i am so into the Internet. its a must every office lessons and i almost die when my computer couldnt connect to the damn internet. hurry finish my assignment, started on-ing all computers i see. and TADAHHHH. here i am :DDDD though its so slowwwwwww. but at least its working! ♥ i need at least half an hour of internet a day and today i need more!

headaches have been real bad for the past few days.
idk why.
exams coming real soon!
i am gonna study, really.
cus i dun wanna repeat a single shit.

FADILAH: i think i can only do it at year end. highlight sucks. i will never wanna ever highlight my hair ever again! see how much i am against it! 29? what day? friday? yea, prolly my sister say the celebration is on a friday. but i think nanie going work, or else we can go chat up after that! GERMAINE: shy your big head ah. you so thick skin. HAHAHAHAHAH. how how? see lah! never tell me! SIQIAN: HELLLLLO. havent seen you for a very long time as well (: how are you? i am doing good. hows your school? you are our future police women!!! :DDD wei, what more mature, you mean i look like a kid last time or i look like a aunty now? NAS: damn you! your reply make me emooooooo ): SIGH!

monopoly

2008-08-19T16:24:00.002+08:00

please dun ask me who and what is this. i only realise after everybody left. so prolly is when they playing with my camera, they came out with this artistic picture. on flash somemore! so classic and cool. this must be by wy okay. and i got many funny pictures toooo.

celebrated zb's birthay in advance on saturday.
so we put up balloons and all.
then when he came in, he was shock and ps.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

i know its not exactly those party feeling, but it is!

we had dinner together (:
all of us sitting down on the dinning table together.
eating homecook food.
HOW NICE IS THAT?
♥

then we played monopoly.
monopoly to me, is a game you play if you cant sleep.
damn! that game is slow like shit lahs!
but but but after that.....
HOHOHOHOHO.
anyway i enjoyed the game like crazy.
all because of our lovely dog face.
he seprated us into citizens and government!
so he as the government suck our money like siao.
charge interest and all.
was fucking funny lah!

OUR GOD OF FORTUNE
look like? yes? no? HAHAHAHAHAH.

blew cake.
i SMASH cake on his face!
HAHAHAHA!

2008-08-19T14:22:00.002+08:00

since an hour ago.
i started appreciating ms sujetha.
although it is like.......

like really, if i never drop i prolly wunt even end up here.
i really dun understand a single shit of what i was taught
since day one. i am serious.
its because of what i learn in kr that allows me to get full marks.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

this teacher just dun understand ANYTHING i say.
she always makes me sound like a devil.
idk why you know, be it a simple or complicated question from me.
she never understand a single bit of it.
and always think i am going towards the
negative side or i am giving her trouble on purpose!
WTF!
how am i suppose to expect a good testimonial from her in future?
-.-
maybe i should throw my graduation testimonial and
all remarks from my report books to scare her to hell.
and let her pee till her body dehydrate!

sighs.
this place is shit lah.
why is there nothing about this place worth my praises?

i am not emo.
i just think its so damn unfair and if this continues,
i am going no where!

tell me about you.

2008-08-18T10:09:00.004+08:00

i am in school to fucking waste time!
3 subjects today,
only one teacher is here.
yet lesson cant be brought forward.
imagine staying in school from 9 to 5 only having 2 hours of lessons.
KNN.

are you having your school holiday?
yes?
i know all from RP is.
i hate all of youuuuuuuuuuu ):
i sour sour grapes!
i jealous lah.
i have to wait for another good one month then i will get my
damn short 3 weeks.

i am telling you.
its fucking turning me off.
everything you do disgust me NOW.
another bomber god i have met.

you are getting out!

2008-08-16T09:54:00.002+08:00

how important is our friendship to you?
you just broke the bond we built and i just cant seem
to compromise anymore.

did i tell you my phone wasnt cut off actually?
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.
it was just some dumb reception problem.
screw starhub.
the next time you call, if cant get thru.
send me a sms.
if you sms and i dint reply, call and check.
OKAY?

i so cant wait for tonight seriously.
i cant say it here cus i scared the surprise wun
be a surprise laterr. so after that i will tell you :D

REPLIES

SHERLENE: just shut up and go to hell. i will be so damn happy! CAT FACE: you all and dawn decide o the date alr then tell me :D you all sure can whack. you all will cover dawn and my losses. HAHAHAHAHHAHAH. NADERA: smoke flavours cheap what, NO? i cute what thats why they give me. you not as cute as me so you dun have! they got many colour and designs, very pretty!

2008-08-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

old days are best days.

old times are best times.

colours of my life

2008-08-15T15:17:00.009+08:00

here are the pictures.
not alot, i forgot what other occasions i left out.
but never mind.
the captions are after the pictures.

BLOOD DONATION DAYY :D

our swensens treat!

the picture in the centre is suppose to be a grp picture.

see the 2 HEADS up there?

:D shaun! he came back yesterday yesterday.

i miss himmm, everybody miss him lah!
he's sucha cutie!

this is during our steamboat, this is our bonding session.

see that women on the bed! its not her house lah!

NATIONAL M visit.

our BFD roleplay.

elephant came out w these rings to lets us pretend be taiati.

♥ they are my fucking sisters!
i tell you, sometimes i feel like sending them
down to hell.
HAHAHHAHAHA.

proper post below.

my sunshine

2008-08-15T12:09:00.004+08:00

wooooooooooooo.
i am sucha a good good girl in school today :DD
really. i completed my whole assignment before blogging lah.
you say, good a not?

school is just 2 hours today.
no no. half an hour late. end half an hour early...
so i am only in school for an hour?
:D

i had breakfast with aaron todayy :)
we went MacDonald, was a last last minute plan.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

i have nothing much to blog about cus there's
nothing much in much life these days.
parents gonna be out of town this weekend.
what a super good news to me!
i like lahh!
but i dun have any plans to hang out ):
chet.
i will kill myself if i have to stay at home tmr man.
date me lah people!

i did my blood donation yesterday.
not pain one lah/
so everybody must donate especially my HJ FF.

okay i will show you pictures later.
i got many pictures for you!

( random: i bring a paper bag to school today. HAHAHA. )

4n4'07 please visit this webpage and vote for little dana :D

http://www.mumcentre.com/index.php?option=com_rsgallery2&catid=1872&page=vote&picid=9535

edits/

i am at my mother's office now :D

had a long talk w ff just now ):
CB KIA.
ni mai an ni lah.
KNN.

i wanted to say something but i forgot.
i always forget lah.
this morning was even worst i keep forgetting what i did.
like i message nadera,
but i THOUGHT i close the message and dint send.
but i did lah. so when i get her reply i was like...
i dint send what why she say all this?

then i know i was meeting aaron and the time was asap.
yet, i shower till my hand become like old aunty.
in my mind i was like, EH. I SHOWER SO LONG ALR?

stupid.

ohhhhhhhhhh.
tmr's gonna be exciting.
jh was looking through the pictures we had in the past
and was emo emo.
so we suggested a meet up.
( i think its tmr. )

:D
i am looking forward cus i miss them!
and i miss robin tooo.
idk why but i miss his bullshit.

when i stop and look at other things other than him,
i realise there are so many more things for me to cry and laugh about!

think too much.

2008-08-13T13:37:00.007+08:00

germaine: get well soon then! :D cat face: how did you get your way here? you better behave yourself or i will deprive you from fishes and good japanese food! scared? yes, then be good! HAHAHAHAH. CEO: O your lan ah! no name is it? KNN. NADERA: no no no. first you must bring me to smoke flavours! then i will go shopping with you. i now broke leis ): my phone kanna chop again ( for awhile awhile cus i happy spending never pay. ) my ear not that pain anymore but feel a little pain when apply the solution still :)

my laobu came back yesterday.
so dissappointed man.
she dint buy a lot of things for me lahhhh.

somehow she became so nice and open yesterday.
she gave green light to almost all the red light ( she used to.)
i think she kinda guess my stuffs and all alr.
cus she started asking funny question.

my mummy can be so understanding and nice.
but sometimes i wish she can shut up.
not that she nags.
but yea, she never consider my feelings. ):

andddd.
FUCK MAN.
my line is chop at the moment ):
when i get my pay i keep forgetting to pay.
now no more money alr.
cannot pay, line cut.
SPELL KNNB in full for me.
and insert middle finger for my bills!

my mother dun want to help me sial.

so people looking for me, do tag, email or sms my prepaid number.
you all should have my number. HAHAHAHAHHAHA.
cus i always tio cut!

i cant wait to fucking fly home and use my prepaid.
i am such a loser!

i am donating blood tmr (:

for you.

2008-08-12T14:10:00.005+08:00

GERMAINE: why? cannot CAPS AHHHH. i like leis. why so sick? love me miss me? ala. time to die lah. just go. stop wasting time.HAHAHHAHAHA. k lah, take good care! SHAUN: are you in school? i havent see you yetttt. you should have message me? so i can give you today what. waittttttttt.. I SAW YOU I SAW YOU I SAW YOUUUUUUUUU :D CRYSTAL: hehehehehhe! i can bath w you toooooo. HAHAHAH! IZ's GF: fuck off. thanks. ask IZ cook lahhh. BLOGGER ASSHOLE: your name too difficult to spell. use asshole can? HAHAHAH. its okay! DAWN: ya lah. tag dun want put name. HUMJI siol! KNN.

me as always

2008-08-12T09:30:00.004+08:00

i contradicts as always.

i lie more than i used to.

i do stupid things more than anyone ever expect.

my thinking and feeling only last for 3 minutes.

3 minutes later is another set of thinking and feeling alr.

i use to be nice and caring.

but now i have decided to be selfish.

it's time i really really think for myself before others.

you wun find the name shermin near praises anymore.

secured.

2008-08-08T11:30:00.008+08:00

GERMAINE: i dun have a choice what. and they still go print its my choice on the uniform. CRAZY. how are you? get well soon!

my class is filled with old animals that loves to read people's post out LOUD. one read one repeat. NB.

i have so many pictures i wanna show you actually.
but i cant cus i dun have the cable around ):
mayb next week or something since this week have been pretty pack.

for those who dk me.
i am someone that dont look at guys as guys and girls as girls.
all of them are the same la. ( i mean my friends lah. ) so like you know, i dun mind my guy-friends not letting me walk first. not opening my door. not carrying the stuffs we bought together or whatever shit you can think of. i dun need them either. UNLESS, you are my boyfriend. then thats a different story altogether. actually i am kinda boyish. i dare to do all sort of things in front of guys other than stripping.

mayb because during my 'teenage forming years', HAH.
my company of friends was 90% guys?
and honestly i prefer the company of guys instead of girls.
i feel way more comfortable with them instead of girls.
ask me to choose boys or girls.
i will choose the boys :D
( i think ff is same same as me )

i dun need poeple to love or like being friends with me actually.
because if i like you, you will see the nice me.
and we will be good friends and you will love me.
but if you have the chance to bitch about me, it means
HAHAHAHAH. I DUN LIKE YOU LAH!

sure got people bitch about me lah.
this is what i feel, but i dun care (:
i feel this ways because i use to be able to click w almost all.
but now i cant click w almost half.
GRRRRRR.

and lastly, i really feel that no matter how flaws flaws somebody is. there's a part of them thats lovely. this applies to all. including the ones i dislike. OHHHHH. tis dun sound like taykk. HAHAHA.

all those mention above are just some random thoughts.

i sleepy sleepy many many today.
EH. i want go eat garden garden.
you dun know what is that right?
TOOOOO BADDD.

i am having the type double double sickness today.

( my class playing hokkien music loud loud. )

updates for the past few days :D

steamboat w the girls, bobby joined as well.
i tell you, it has been quite awhile since i really eat till i almost burst.
all the way till next morning still bloated.
know know know, you know.
everytime when one big group come together and gather gather.
it will either be gossip/bitching or heart to heart talk.
( to what i feel )

but what we had was bonding!
it was a really good good bonding session.
serious!
:D
aaron must go do reflection and punish himself for missing the fun.
AND JOIN US THE NEXT TIME!

NATIONAL MUSEUM yesterday.
i think it's nice you know.
i actually enjoyed the trip.
forget about the listening and writing.
i just love the things you see there.
very culture culture. olden days and all (:
i wanna go arts museum leis.

dinner at swensens with the usual.
this time all of us went together nobody more or less :D
COOOOOKKKKIIIIIEEEEE SUMMMMMMIIIITTT ♥

too bad lah.
i despo.
i really need things to occupy my mind.
and i a greedy pig loves good food.
( i put on weight again. this time i weigh myself ): )

mrt-ed home with aaron.
tried to brain wash him like siao.
and today morning he came saying smth like.
he finally sort out he's thinking after listening to what i say.
OH MY OH MY. I FEEL SO PROUD.
hahahahahhahahaha.

mummy flew to bangkok this morning.
she dint wake me up ):
and i dint hug her and i also dun want to wake up
becauseeeee we quarrel yesterday.
but not my fault man.
KNNNNN.

i dun care also.
screw the liar at home that always cause me to
shout at my mother and grandmother.
fuck man, got cock big shot ah?
always i play bad guy then still need to get scolding.
so i have decided not to talk to him, and ask him to shut his gap
each time he calls/talk to me.
he's my brother lah in case you think its my laopeh.

i am dying for nuggets.
so i am going mac with my FF laterrrr :D

today is national day eve!
( random! )

the way it is now is the best/

2008-08-06T10:29:00.006+08:00

germaine: i know i often bright up your dull and boring days in KR. thank you thank you. i know i look like as although i suffer some laughing gas shit back then. but its just so different her leis. ): zia: HEHEHEHEHEHE. thank you thank you. i think is dawn blind. not you :D dawn: KNN. you blind say you blind. dun say my friend horrr. act one cutie pie. LI KI SI LAH meng dan never die. i is han xiang. HAHAHAHAHA. i never pontang. ): NI YUNG WANG LIM PEH LAH. i sick ): sobbs sobbs.

hello wello lallo lillo :D
i feel super nice and hyper today.
no no no.
no special reasons like i am getting married or what.
but hahahahaha. i think because i skipped school yesterday.
so i look forward to school today w my new school bag and my fav white shirt :D
fyi, i prefer my white top more than the shiity red and blue.
so dark and ugly.

i am having roleplay presentation in a while.

back to monday.
i met my bestest fat friend.
me god me god.
she the coolest pill ever,
she's the best remedy for my bad days.

starbucks at causeway point.
we bought a new school bag each.
a reward for working so hard actually and we needed a bag?
:D
i actually hesitated, but now. i love love love my bag.
although its kinda plain and simple.
but i love love love my bag ♥
much much people say nice worxxx.
HAHAHAHAHA.

kay, then we drill holes on our ear.
me being a loser of course scared lah.
HAHAHAHA.

killed time over dinner.
and home.

just so you know.
i dun bitch and gossip.
i come str to the point and say whatever i dun like about whoever.
i just speak the truth.

i skipped school yesterday which was helly the best thing i love to do. because you know school's dumb. you come but attend relief lessons. wtf sia!

went check up :D
& i got my pretty pictures develop!
WOOOOOWWW!

i am having steamboat tonight w the girls.
okay, this time i am excited mayb because i am hyper today.
and i am kan cant wait for prawn and meat ballls...

edits/ ( i just keep editing.)
because i am bored.
and i dun know where the hell my teacher issh.

the power got cut off just now.
please know how budget this place is.
air con room = air con spoil.
computer room = computer spoil/lousy/slow.
and sometime sometimes power kanna cut off.

the food in this canteen suck lah.
sometimes just by looking at the food make me wanna puke.
i rather go empty stomach man.
so i depend on my daily must have dosage of milo
from the vending machine. why cant they have nice food?

i just did a survey and i praised my CA.
wait, can you believe it?
i kp so much about her when school started i used to dislike her like siao. but now, i think she is super duper good nehs. she's the nicest teacher you will ever meet in ite. ALTHOUGH, she nags, sometimes she dun even understand what you are talking and and and many times she will ignore your stupid questions. still, her passion is overwhelming!

was over at sheryl's blog.
seriously, what so good about being in a relationship?
but still i want nehs.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA.
i know i am bull shitting.
forgive me, and i will love you.
THANKS MANSXZXZX.
:D
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

i cant help but like to play with my ears.
but pain leis. & i never bring the solution somemore.

last last.
when it was gone.
i wish i may i wish i might so damn hard for it to come.
when it finally arrive i wish it dint come at all.
wtf sia shermin tay.
yes, go eat shit.

.....

2008-08-04T09:54:00.005+08:00

SHAUN: i am always tired of schooool what. just that its getting more more more and more bore. always free period. FADILAH: love you too babe (: w/o the wall the backgrd would have be better! BOB: :DD, owe things return things. thank you. no, this is not a hint. you decide. DAWN: you KNNBCCB. you bs is it? wanna fight sb? come! put horse come, meng dan can do the job for me. he my shi fu. blogger asshole: you look like number 8. hahahaha!

weekends was pretty fun-filled :D
caught jack neo's production.
pretty nice and touching.
satisfying dinner.

YAYY.
i got a fking good excuse to be absent from school tmr.
i so so so so happy can?
yes, can :D

your number finally flash on my screen.
but.

miss fahizah's wedding (:

2008-08-01T17:17:00.002+08:00

here are the pictures taken on miss fahizah's wedding.
just a few actually.

on january.

2008-08-01T11:13:00.006+08:00

todae iish august fool'ssxsx dae.

well.
you know, it suck to have someone so damn fucking selfish
to lead the class. if you cant be fair to everybody then
go to hell and get yourself off this post.
if you think its you. good! it's damn you.

i am so hungry now.
today is another super stuffy day.
i think i am going to pamper myself later (:
because my pay in INNNN.
but first i am gonna develop all my birthday pictures!

i am going to the dentist later.

the last time i went to the dentist was the very first time i got your call :D when we got mixed up and confuse over dentist/dental. wisdom tooth/teeth. how silly can this get. still i swear it brighten up my whole damn day. i wun deny that sometimes i really feeling something's lacking w/o you. and sometimes i wish my phone will ring again soon after midnight. i know this sounds stupid but no one will be able to get over something like this so soon?

TSK! i am getting so bored of school!

edits/

okay.
in the end, i ended up at my mum's office after my dental appointment instead of my planned activities. i realise after paying my bills, debts, facial, developing of pictures and a small amount to save i am left w less than 150bucks. wtf right. one whole month to earn like siao one day all gone ):

i know its forever

2008-07-31T09:25:00.005+08:00

GERMAINE: how nice! how come you can skip? but anw the napfa system here's screwed so dun waste your time. i failed mine by a few seconds for my 2.4 run ): wait! how th hell did you manage to skip it AGAIN. FADILAH: awwwwww. you trying to melt me or make me cry? THANK YOU. yea, you know we seriously have no time for each other ANYMORE. my pay's not in yet, suppose to come on the 1st. i think mine's gonna be peanut as well. NADERA: why is your holiday comming so soon? mine still got so many weeks lah. FUCK. when pay comes the first thing we must do is poke holes on our ears. HAHAHAHHA.

everytime i am alone or on the bus.
my mind is so filled with words and shit.

i had ice cream yesterday.
but the ice cream yesterday suck lah.
thinking of it wanna make me puke.
cus its so milky.
but the cooling sensation when the ice cream is in your mouth
was good like fuck cus yesterday sun big like siao.
:D

Georgiana and sujia was craving for steamboat like crazy.
but i insisted ice cream because steamboat too far.
and they compromise, so nice of them righttt?
awwwwwww.
♥

then we went giant.
HAHAAHAHAHA.
it was fucking funny.
Georgiana was like this is nice. this is nice.
machem everything also nice.
sujia kept blocking my way.
and i happily push the trolley with our school bags inside.

Q up for soooo long just to get 2 little packets of snacks.
MRT-ed w the big size & this is the first time i tried to squeeze in like crazy, i must have looked stooopid. ):

i ' OPENED' up the flowers my mother gave on my18th alr.
so nice leis. i hesitated when i was about to unwrapped everything.
but it stinks.
& now i got 13 beautiful pens ;D
i dint throw away the flower though.
i am gonna dry it and wrap on my own.
i am a florist to be.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH :D

i am gonna skip my class for one hourrr!

ps: aaron is listening to all the emo emo songs next to me ):

edits/

i heard there's 2 sun today.
is it true?
or just some lame kuku.
but today's realllly stuffy.
so damn stuffy, i perspire even when i am sleeping in class.
wtf?
and i swear i feeling so sticky and i stink!

i wanna donate blood okay?
but actually i scared?
NANIE PAIN NT?
but i wanna donate leis.

ALEX TAN
you think whatttt?
bukit batok your hotel is it?
you better behave yourself & know your limits ahhh.
DUN TAKE ADVANTAGE HORRRRR.

if you read

2008-07-30T11:16:00.004+08:00

school ended early for the last 2 days.
please end early today also (:
i chop my hair and it sucks nw lah.
i have to clip my hair.
okay, its really very ugly.
if if if i dint highlight my hair i will be able to
do straightening alr.

screwed my excel.
WELL DONE.

edits/

HEHEHEH.
school's gonna end early again today.
thank you thank you.
:D

i am so super tired.
i skipped PE just now.
& i sat down for one hour till my ass pain.

i dun know whats with me again.
SHIT.

i am not gonna work later.
i cancelled it.
because.....
i dun wanna work.
):

PAY COMING IN ON FRIDAYYYYYYY!

what should i do?

life so fragile

2008-07-28T11:26:00.004+08:00

life is really really so fragile ):
you wun know what will happen tmr.
you cant predict, yet you can never live your life to the fullest.
shit the saying live your life to the fullest
there are always so many external factors to consider.

someone idk.
its some friend's friends, passed away at the age of 19.
car accident.
read her blog and all.
how fragile can life get?

what if i die tmr?
theres so many things i havent accomplished yet.
i am still young for some and i have no control over a few.
lifes fragile yet we cant control and do whatever we desire.

_________________________________________

let me reply to my tags first :D

DAWN: please go burn down that cheeena place!!!!!!!!!! think alr blood boil. KNN. BRYAN: HAHAHA. where's your new link? BOBBY: yes, (: too tired to smile today. i will ignore her so i can be a nice girl :D go blogshop. go buy tongs. HAHAH FADILAH: SURE SURE. 29 what.

was chit chatting w my sister yesterday,
talking about times when we were young.
you know when we are young we are really really selfish.
and if she accidentally touch me.
she must say sorry.
or i will beat her back. vice versa.
we used to sleep in mattress. we will fold up the sides of leave a gap.
she dun like me to touch her vice versa.
seeeeeeee!!!
so KA GAO.
then we always have to stand and face the wall.
(punishment)
pee in potty, dun want throw the pee.
when mother ask who pee. both deny.
when having tuition we hide our books,
teacher ask for it we waste time go room search.
WTF.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.

went for miss fahizah's wedding on saturday.
she soo sooo sooo pretty :D
and her gold fish eye look like ping pong ball.
HHAHAHAHAHAH.

steamboat w ff yesterday.
KNN.
i wanna tear that shitty place down man.
SUCKS LAH.
xian de lai
really ah, eat alr also not shiok.

a single scoop icecream was way better!
:D

you dint make me skipped a beat

2008-07-25T11:13:00.005+08:00

why do some people talk without checking
the words they use, the sentence they phrase?
why are they just so damn childish.
i feel like slapping them right into their face.
or wake them up and teach them how to use their damn ass brain.

i am dying and going crazy over my cravings AGAIN.

ice cream, steamboat, chocolate desserts.
ice cream, steamboat, chocolate desserts.
ice cream, steamboat, chocolate desserts.
ice cream, steamboat, chocolate desserts.
ice cream, steamboat, chocolate desserts.
ice cream, steamboat, chocolate desserts.

please satisfy them for me manxzxzxzxzxzxzxzx ;)

i expected today to be occupied like the past few days lah.
then today so empty.
KNN.
i smell so good today youk.
i bet you dun.
cus i got new shampooooo :DDD
thanks to booby lah k bobby?

did i tell you i scored marks for my accounting again.
HAHAHAHHAHA.
then mrs seam wanted me to teach my classmates,
but almost 1/3 of the class agreed that i will end up shouting and screaming at them instead. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

anyw anyw you know,
one of the girl went in for DPA :D
i dun exactly know who she is lah.
but yea, its a good news.
so doesnt matter who (:

looking forward to tmr and sundayyy!

idk.

2008-07-24T09:43:00.004+08:00

when was racial harmony day?
monday, tuesday?
ehhhy, why here dun have traditional costume festival man!
last time i will complain cuz so mafan right?
have to bring to school and change.
but now i want also no more alr ):

i really really have good good good good friends around youk.
i love love love love them.

dawn : LSPCB. LKNNBCCB. ohhhmyyyy. so vulgar. go where spa? kun ning gong? or shu fang zai? you choose lah kay. then make appointment w me. cleavage? which chio bu show? me me? me? i never pon school lah. laooo, dun spoil my image! ;)

atiqah: HELLLLO. doing good (: getting use to school. of course, those ice cream made my ): days! :DDDD

yesteday was last

2008-07-23T10:52:00.004+08:00

i need them.
now now now now now!

not like NOW.
but yes, now!

never mind.

today has got to be the last

2008-07-22T15:27:00.008+08:00

♥ my love runs in here!

TAGS:
RMM'S BESTF very long never go for needle spa alr?
DAWN AND KOLRENCE you dun klp pretty here, handsome there. watch out, i will or gong you.

FADILAH SEE YOU SOOON :)

GERMAINE ahhhhh. dun lie dun lie. i had the urge to go for the jap food yesterday. but was too late alr. HAHAHAHAH.

i am seriously so lack of sleep these days.
pimples conquring me alr lah.

i skip blogging in school.
and seriously sat down to work anddddd thenn
had an argument w a particular teacher
i dun give a fuck srsly.
you cant say you cannot tahan me for very long alr.
i throw the same sentence back to you.
just go lick my shit.

i mean you are paid to teach.
if you are not gonna teach you just
jolly well stay at home and shake leg?
KNNBPCB.

nothing much these days.
pictures for you :D

my face a little distorted. ):

we look like couple here?
yes, no? people always say we look like in pictures.
NO, we are not.
we are just pure 18years of friends! my only childhood friend.

A DEVIL, A GOD, A DEVIL GOD

these are the balloons from jing :D

MY DREAM CATCHER!
this is from chef darryl (:
i think it's really interesting.

if it catches good dreams. how good would that be?

you wont catch me ever again.

2008-07-21T09:27:00.007+08:00

germaine: yea lah. i know lah. now only wanna go with zb then ignore me ):

sherlene: i know my way leis. i wun end up like youuuuu. HAHAHAHA. but i never wear.

fadilah: ehyyy. fat not entitle to you larrrh. only entitled to nanie :)

giana: next time use your name elephant. HAHAHAHAHA.

____________________________________________

:D

let me start w FRIDAY

basically, i shut my mouth for the whole day in school.
shut my mouth all the time at home,
untilllllllllll i met my awesome awesome people :D
somehow they emptiness just dissappear.
and i was kinda excited about the party!
i wrapped up binbins gift with ming yi monk's face.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

that party was good (:
the jokes was created by looking at others.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA.

our group finally unite lah.
finally after 46543698745648297 yearssss
& b joined us as well.
:D

i know my bs is a little short of colours cuz i havent been posting pictures. soon soon okay :D

SATURDAYY

i missed my bus stop to alight on my way to work.
( like always. )
nah, just twice actually.
HAHAHAHAHHA.

work was great cus i ended work early.
actually, i really dun feel like working.

met my fat friend after that.
went to get malay costume.
i wanted those fitting one but it was ex like siao.
so i got those big ones.
wait i know you dun understand.
recently, i am so confuse over kebaya & kurong.
okay. you better dun laugh.

i am so excited for the wedding celebration coming up this saturday. WHOOOOOOOOOOO ~

SUNDAY.

work free.
so uncle's place, i think we only go to his place once a year?
before yesterday was last year to celebrate his birthday,
& yesterday was to celebrate his birthday as well :D

tried peppermint chocolate cake yesterday for the first time.
i like the mint flavourrr ♥

dinner and all.
i almost burst to death.

_________________________________

today.

georgiana was bulling shit saying she cry
because i am unhappy.
so i said i am happy :DDDD

the sujia added in
you always monday happy but after that until friday always sulk.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

i am gonna dye my hair tonight (:
cus the colour kinda fade and i think its really ugly.

i wreally wreally wanna change url and and layout.

this week's gonna be nice!

HUGS PLEASE.

2008-07-18T09:20:00.010+08:00

germaine: you dun proud okay. i know you go before. that explains your sizeeee! HAHAHAHA. you better clear the history in your computer :)

NADERA: put on your specs lah. i only have one favourite friend. you are my fat friend. its a title just for youuu. see how much i love you? :D

crystal: HAHAHAH. i dint link you but i rmb your link in my heart leis. BAKA-LOVERS.bs :D

_____________________

today's binbins BBQ over at east coast.
okay. i got him the condoms alr.
HAHAHAHA.
that will sure come in handy man.

i am having my accounting exam in half an hours time :D

i am hungry.
):

i wanna shout/
i wanna cry.
but i wanna be a big girl.
i need big hugs.
bring me to the zoo to get hugs from bearrrrr.

sighs.

edits/

i wanna edit nanie's name.
& add links but somehow my template got problem leis.

the teacher is not teaching.
then dun want let us go home!!!

i made a careless mistake for my paper.
i better dun get a 29/30
cus if the one mark is for that careless mistake.
i will KI SIAOOOOOO.

i keep editing and retyping this post.
and i am gonna do it again.

idk why and how you explain.
but i always have this very empty and painful feeling.
bcuz i m so confuse and dere're so many factors to consider.
bcuz i am always soft hearted.
bcuz i care for people more than i care for shermin.
bcuz i am so scared he will be down
( which i strongly think he wun )
bcuz i dun have the courage to keep repeating the
same things for so many times.
bcuz i am a loser.

now i wanna slap myself.
now i wanna cry ( i want to be big girl leis )
now i want big hugs
now i want chocolate.
now i want lame jokes.
now i wanna laugh till i drop.
now i need some sinful treatment.
now i need some plaster.

kay now,
fuck off.

why does every single thing goes around either sex or money?

replies

2008-07-17T17:15:00.003+08:00

germaine: must you put down the alphabets? dun like that lah, you will scare away my fishes you know ): zbzbzbzbzbbzbzbzbzbzbbzbzbzbzbbzbzbzb. :DDDDDDD yes yes yes, is nihon mura! i am getting excited over the name of the place itself. in class then study lah. dun play computer lah.

dawn: okay, i will see when :)

... : put your name if you wanna speak, or else shut up? I DUN FAKE AT ALLL. and i look down on fakers. if you so happen to be one then, i look down on you. i dun fake because i always remember this sentence told to me but a important person : just do whatever your heart desires and be yourself. cus that will bring the best out of you (:

hyper shitxzxzxzx :DDD

2008-07-17T09:28:00.008+08:00

germaine: YAYYY! you finally miss meeeee. hahahha. how's your boyf doing? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. we will meet when my pay comes. settt? then we go to the jap place. i forgot the name of the place :D
fan of RMM: when you want? YOU SO BUSY! CCB.
june's mole: dun worry. i wun die before you. i wanna send you ( last layer. ) translate chinese!
bob: you are the best walking goreng pisang everrr! dun be proud ah ;)

____________________________________

mixture of emotions.
but i am very hyper now.
i need someone to lame w me please.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBIN!
( we worship you like a god! ♥ )

i wanna buy condoms for robin.
but when i see condoms i shy leis.
i am serious, i am a loser!
but its so embarrassing to buy condoms lah.
( for a girl )

working was great yesterday.
because chris was there.
i tell you, he was so damn shit.
the chef cook soft chell crab for me.
so i happily wanted to share it w him.
& he KNNB la,
imagine: he hold the crab w 8 fingers.
open his big mouth and threw everything in.
machem 20 years never see food.
you should have seen his facial expression!
still it was nice working w someone that
really loves working!
the people there all fucking fucking lazy.

♥

i dint say i wanna stay.
did i?

sinful moments!

2008-07-16T10:35:00.005+08:00

coit tower, baked mussles and french fries!
♥ ♥

i realise there are so many fake people around.
is it because of our age or something?
its so scary to hear bitching and gossips almost everyday.
i have never been in a class lidat before.
NEVER EVER.

i am working todayyy.
i think i have nothing nice to talk about today.
so yea, goodbye (:

edits/
i am seriously very tired!
i need sleeeeeeep.
i have no spare energy for work laterr.
save me please.
):
aniway, i tell you ah.
clementi got the best goreng pisang.
to me? HAHAHA.
i will always buy when i go there for lunch.
fyi: i used to dislike goreng pisang until when
dawn force me to try the one over at clementi.
but still until now, i only like the one over at clementi.
i find the taste very disgusting.
hahahaha.
really, cus its so flour flour & all.

but the one i had today taste so funny,
machem got alcohol taste. HAH!

nevermind that.
i am in an aircon room now.
& i smell this hongkong leg smell.
SHIT!
dk which monkey.

i really need a nappppppppppp.

fake a smile

2008-07-15T14:31:00.001+08:00

kinda feel super relieve today.
(:

had my super super super chocolate ice cream yesterday
( chocolate crunch :D )
went in a group.
HAH. you have no idea how long was it since i hang out in a group!

had my favourite delicious lor mee &
the best goreng pisang i have ever tasted.
but still not enough ):
i am still craving for moreeeeeeee!
i want more chocolate ice cream
and i am going for it again laterrrrr!

on a mood ride

2008-07-14T11:26:00.006+08:00

was feeling so shitty.
and it was cured by the tags on dawns blog.
they should just go interview to be some jokers.
i know, the shitty feeling is back again ):

dgdhgfhrtu
rhrthjrtjuvstru
jnwrjhwv ne
nhurhyeoretre
itjrqwoi5hyb rioqwect
iortervtertierit,qe!

its not about school.
you wunt understand.
i just wanna shut the world up.
really.
cus i am feeling so scared & worried.
even if you understand you cant give me right advices.
i only have myself to ask if i need constructive advices for this situation,
cus if soulmate cant solve it.
i am so sure none of you can!

why is it so that you never never never understands or even try to understand the pain i feel?

how about some vongola dk what.
its actually a clam soup pasta.
you think that can cure my day?
idk, i am craving for that now.

F.
( trying to be gentle. hahaha. so only type first letter. )

i packed my stuffs on Saturday.
and i have this box that contains letters.
i think inside smelly smelly got 200 written letters.
♥
read thru my past years birthday cards and small notes.
i realise i am always the bubbly girl for everybody.
i am always the pair of ears.
i am like this so called fairy saving
all the tears of people around.
my advices and talks often guide them thru.
but why is it so that i have yet to
find myself somebody lidat?
why is it so that no one manage
to guide me thru all my pains yet.
all these while, past few years.
the ones i met are only those that will take
my pain away for awhile.
and it will come back again. ):
my laughter will be the thing the kinda make people's day.
my laughter can just easily make people laugh.
do you all see the difference in me?
am i still so bubbly?
am i still so cheerful?
am i still mrs sims KAI XIN GUO?
can i still make peoples day?
i am no longer as carefree?

really, out of 10 loud laughs, how many are genuine laughter?
why is it so that i havent laugh till i cry for so long?
it is the people around thats getting boring.
or am i getting more and more affected?
(- inserts middle finger! )

but still,
i received a praise for my loud laughter.
she say my laughter makes her laugh.
HEHEHEHEHAHAHHAH :D

when i dint have the freedom to hang out late.
i complain like crazy.
now when i have a little more
freedom than what i use to have,
when i can stay out a little later alr.
i am actually scared ):
i will always wanna make sure i reach my area @ 10.
and i walk like a chicken w/o head home.

do you know how scary my area is?
imagine downstairs is black people infested.
FUCK.
then there's this china flasher still running about.
FUCK.
then directly opposite your house lives a crazy cheebye.
that spread shit @ your door,
like how your mother spread butter on bread.
when she puts her exercising machine
in the middle of the walk way.
anytime after 11 she will be
wearing sports wear exercising.
& to get home you must walk pass her.
you dare?
her house wulu like cave.
door always open.
KNNB LA.

tell me lah.
how to hang out late?
even when i am enjoying, i am alr worried for the later part.

but something good is my father has finally decide on moving house.
he has been thinking for sometime alr & he finally started viewing houses.
but house really very expensive?
if he really buy i feel the heartache man.
so expensive lah.
i really hope he will continue searching and searching
until he finds a good one.

but still i wanna complain.
i dun dare to go home.
its my house.
i live there for 6 years alr yet i am still so scared.

i realise my post is always so emotional.
its always so wordy.
i am so tired.
okay thats all?
BYE BYE!

Photo Shoot part 2

2008-07-13T00:02:00.001+08:00

Latest picture of me.

please spell bored

2008-07-12T15:36:00.005+08:00

i am dying @ home.
i thought i will be fully entertain by hzgg.
but i dint know i will finish it so fast.
and i spend the rest of my afternoon building sand castles w tv on):
goodness!

i think i am falling sick.
because i am down w flu, cough, sore throat.
( a little of each )
i better get well man!
i ave got a BBQ, SWENSENS & CHOC DESSERT waiting for me next week.

talking about that.
i really miss my secondary school life w ff.
seriously, no matter how close we are now.
the feeling is a little different alr.
something is missing.
idk how she feels about it but i feel different alr.
but we are still ff :DDD ♥

mayb, becus we are busy w our own stuffs and
our school ends at different timing.
we dun even have time to hang out tgh anymore.
its either her dating or my working.
ages since we went shopping.
when we are @ KR.
my mother will always complain cus i hardly return home str after school.
reason: we always go satisfying our craving.
we name it, we eat it!
from the most low class one ROTI PRATA to maybe SUSHI?
we go for cheese prata, hokkien mee, fried mars, steamboat, sushi.
just anything that comes to our mind.

i dint know ite life will be so different.
my friends are always busy with their church events.
yes, so i can just forget about hanging out as a group w them.

i will srsly still choose secondary school more than ite.
never mind the rules and uniform.
never mind the boring subjects, the no eating & no handphones in class.
its the joy you have with friends that makes everything worth it!
maybe i am just not use to it yet. i will learn
or mayb actually keeping quiet in school will be the best?
i wun spoil their mood & i wun get pissed off? yes? no?

i know when elephant see this she will say.
oh, so sad we are not your good friends.
we cant make your day.
all of you are my good friends.
all of you are the reason of me staying in school & going to school that day.
i see the good things in all of you that really touches me.
& i am really thankful i met all of you :D
yes?
you, ratty, bobby, aaron.
every single one of you has alr
become the reason for me going to school.
but i need to adapt.
i am not ready yet.
i am sorry.
i love all of you!

k bye!

edits/
i realise ff was sort of on the same topic as me.
no wonder call ff.
fyi: we are wonder women that wonder wonder in the night! :D

edits/
i just break the doors and run into bobbys blog to give him a surprise for his birthday tmr! HEHEHEHEAHAHA. i am feeling good now, because i know he will be touched. thats so nice of me!

like balloons love expire.

2008-07-11T11:08:00.007+08:00

good.
i flung my BFD.
not like i fail like shit but i passed like fuck.
by one mark onlyyy.
this happens for my class test as well.
basically for all the test i have taken for BFD,
i will only pass by one or fail ,
which is crap.
2 As and a C
goodbye to a 4 or 3.8GPA alr.
& actually i still have 2 more exams for each subject before i can get a GOOD GPA
which also means this time score good also no use ):
because i know i cant do well for the next exams.

i will not think of quitting.
because my friends and many around manage to talk sense into me.
it seems like staying here is sure better than going out for private.
okay whatever it is.

jing baby came over yesterday when it was pouring like crazy.
just to bring me my birthday gift of 8 coloured happy birthday printed balloons.
it was really really so so so pretty.
and it really touches my heart when i saw her alight from the car
bring out the balloons, close the door and walk towards me.
okay, people please imagine then you will know how touched i was.

i bake cookies yesterday.
i wanted to give it to bobby as a gift since he dnt like cakes.
but idk whats wrong w my ingredients ):
the taste is so so so super different.
sisters say it still nice but i think it suck lah.
threw them away. ):

also i wanna talk about DPA.
to those who dk.
it is actually an admission exercise for all o level candidates
to go into the course they want by applying thru the Internet and going for interview.
doesnt matter the cop of that course but if you are selected and you score less than 26 you have alr secure yourself a placing in the course you desire.

):
out of so and so many people that applied last year.
i think only 10% got selected.
if you read the news you will know the exact number.
and among those that were selected.
shermin was inside :D
i must say i felt happy, but i wasnt proud about it.
i still study like the others but i must say prolly not as hard.
because i gave myself a C5 for all subject
( for the worst case )
and if it get even worst, i still have space for a c6.
that was what i thought.
i went for check up as required.
i went to the school to register.
but in the end.
TADAHHHHH.
i got myself a placing in the shitty school.
first choice somemore.

well.
the message that i am trying to get across is.
you may have secure yourself a place in the course you wish for.
but please study study study as hard.
because they dun allow appeal @ at all.
i tried calling 3 to 4 times but they just dun allow.
& i still remember the sentence they say that just make me cry on the phone.
AS LONG AS YOU SCORE MORE THAN 26 YOU ARE AUTOMATICALLY REMOVE FROM OUR LIST.

to those that dislike me you may laugh all you want.
i dun care at all.
for those that are applying, i wish you all the best :D

i am working todayyyyyy.

shaun just came back ;D
he officially quited school alr.
how nice?
but i will miss him leis.
we only spend a very short time together
but the time spent was fabulous.

i think i am behaving like a sicko.
i sayang my roses every day.
hahahahaha.
i like the texture leis.
& i will sniff sniff them.

okay.
thats all.
i know this is a super long wordy post.

edits/
mummy say she's gonna give me a loan for photography :D

2008-07-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

this is by Germaine -.-

1. What do you want most?
people around to be happy happy. emo fruit to be happpy :) you dun have to say, i know. i sense it.

2. Where do you want to go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
PARIS PLEASE. but you must give me 2 i dun want to go alone.

3. whats your favorite thing to do?
to skip school (:

4. Do you think money can buy you happiness?
Nooooooo.

5. If you can have one dream come true, what would it be?
can i not tell you please? HAHAHAHA.

6. Do you believe that you can live without money?
yes, because i am broke now.

7. the person next to you now?
BIG ELEPHANT AND BOBBY.

8. What is love?
good question! i want to know the answer too. is it smiling for 3 minutes & emo for 3 days?

9. What do you dream about of doing in the future?
i wanna do my own biz. or get married w a wonderful partner ;D

10. List 3 good point about the person who has tagged you.
no good point for her manxzxzx.
1.) she skip my party.
2.) she make me go thru this hassle
3.) she never say she miss me before!

11. What makes you happy?
when i satisfy my craving ;D

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
KT is an example.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
i w be 28? prolly married w kids alr.

14. At what age do you intend to marry?
25!

15. How many children do you intend to have? Boy or Girl?
one each.

16. What I wished for?
wishes never come true. thats why i dint wish for anything this birthday. i dun believe in wishes anymore.

17. If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
i wanna be the only child. i know i sounds selfish but you all never understand.

18. If you can be one type of food, what would it be?
BANANA so i can understand my soulm better.

19. Are you courageous enough to tell a person you like him/her?
I AM! or mayb idk

20. What are you doing now?
cursing GERMAINE SOLD BEE HOON

this is from her blog:

Ehhs, I’ve never done a survey/quiz before ever since I started blogging. But why am I doing this -.- waste of my time. I know Shermin done it a lot of times already… but you know what? You know I love you XD so you gotta do it! :D

i know you wanna slap me till i die

2008-07-10T09:59:00.004+08:00

TAG REPLYYYYSSSS
( i know how to spell. i want to act only )
t germaine: yes. you missed out a lot. but no actually. it wasnt as blast as i wanted it to be!
wonderwomen: thank you for blessing me. please kindly bless my ff as well? please? because she always go sc. i scared i she will get get virus.
melanie: okay. i will send to you asap.
mic: doesnt matter.
bobby: its not random. its magic!

HAHAHAHAHHA.
HAHAHAHAH.

i think this is really stupid.
really.
guess, guess where am i now?
OH.
i am at ITE.
i am in school today.
georgiana lahhhhhhhhhh. she woke me up.
& i know they miss me (:
so i showered & cab to school.

CRAZY right?
yesterday i complain complain and complain.
today i actually wanna stay at home and rot.
but TADAHHHHHH.
i am in school.

yes, i still dun like school.
yes, i hate it like crazy ):

but many says its still better to get this cert first.
then really pursue what i want.
mum ask me to go apply for what i want & at the same time study here first.
incase i dun get in to private school i will be left w nothing.
so i think i will do just that ;)
i will continue studying here. ( i think )
this is what i say today, who knows i will kisiao again tmr.
i will learn to accept although i will keep on complaining.

i got ( 90 ) A for my office.
& i got A for accounting as well.
i fking wish i can get a A or B for BFD.
if i really get that result.
i think i will shut up, be good & stay here :D

i feel like baking today.

MY LEGAL 18 PARTYYY!

2008-07-09T15:22:00.014+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY CAKE!

;D CUTEEEE?

♥ this is the biggest card.

ALRIGHTS!
pictures all up ;)
i am lazy to arrange & add captions.
HAHAHAHAHAH!

MDIS GOODDD?

GOODBYE!

tudaee issh mie sunshine daeeee :D

2008-07-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

blogger eat shit want you know?
you know?
yes, actually i think you know.
cus i cant upload picturesss & i see the same thing on many ppls blog as well.
-.-

today i am a happy girl.
because i am school free (:
i cant be bothered w the debarment shit anymore.
cus i really hate school.
i think i think only they are gonna give green light to private schools alr.
YESSSSSSAHHHH!
but the prob w be if the school will take me in lah.
cus my credits not enough ):

i was actually thinking of psychology or photography.
but parent think photography no use.
& there nothing like psychology for private dip.
sooooooo.
i kinda decide on mass communication.
HAHAHAHAH.
but i cannot write good?
but i like the media stuff inside.
LALALALALA ~

is the iphone coming out gonna cost only 200$
tell me it is and i make sure i get it!
i heard that it is.

i actually wanna upload my birthday pictures.
but looks like i cant? ):

UPSIDE DOWN

2008-07-08T09:47:00.005+08:00

i just KEAP my fingers between the keyboard 'drawer' ?
idk how the f you describe them!

i shouldnt have come to school today?
or i shouldnt have fking choose this bloody schoooool.
why dint i study harder when i had a chance to do so ):
now i am regretting and idk where else i can go.
know actually i am very keen in learning photography.
i am thinking of getting a dip in that but my parents just wun give green light to that.
because they think its useless.
i wun say its useless but mayb it just dun give you a wide range of jobs to choose from?
but my interest is there?
ever since i come into this place.
i completely lose interest in studying?
really, imagine doing anything you like except pon taning school.
willl you still wanna study?
idk about you. but i dun want anymore!
like now the teacher is teaching, i am blogging.
same for yesterday.
and i tell you 9 out of 10 people are just surfing away.
if they dun care why dun they just accept pontaning?
( the teacher teach the wrong thing again. a few of them corrected her AGAIN! )
arbo, let me teach?

i am just so not use to the life here.
not, not use is dun like?i really really dun like.
i dun like a single thing here.
nothing attracts me to school, not even my friends.
i must say they are nice so of course i am nice to them also lah.
but they are not people i can click super duper good like dawn, nadera, danny.
THEY ARE NOTTTTT.
!$#%^&(@$.

i am like a primary school kid.
complaining every night.
saying i dun wanna go school.
i dun want school
i dun want school.
i dun want school.
but because i have to produce MC.
& i dun like waiting at polyclinics, so i LL have to go.
):

just as i was 3 stops away from school today.
it started to pour like f!
so we bus all the way clementi, wanted to cab.
but the Q soooo long?
so we bus back to school again.
& waited for umbrella.

so whats the moral of the story?
IT WAS SO DAMN TROUBLESOME.
if i stay at home even better right?

do you all know when i last took my OFA & BFD exams?
i think its alr one month or a month and a week ago alr.
until now, they still dun wanna give us our result.
( - inserts 2 middle finger! )
is it because the school is old so all the teachers are as old that they are not done w it yet?
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

met fadilah w b yesterday.
exchange our gifts and i got trick by her lah.
SHIT!
went around to look for laptops.
okay, i am serious on getting a laptop.
if you are asking me to wait for my parents to get it for me.
you can just ask me to wait until i sleep in th coffin.
cus they are never gonna get it for me.

( she taught the class wrong things againnn! -.- )

so nice if i am rich right?
if i got the $$$.
i am gonna shift out and stay on my ownnnnn!
i want a DSLR also?
sighsssss!

send me a roller coaster to make my day.

last last last, i srsly hate it when people make plans and say wanna go out.
plan until happy happy.
when i get excited alr,
everybody is busy and cannot make it.
FUCK LAH.
then shut your mouth at the very first place la CCCCB.
say alr then cnnot might as well go and dieeee.
KNNNNBPCBBBBB!
no pin point, this happen to almost EVERYBODY AROUND ME.

( mannnn. she teach wrongly again! )

goodbye (:

dun take me for that ride again

2008-07-07T10:22:00.004+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOO.
i turned 18 alr.
you know? you know? you know anot?
actually i am not proud that i am 18.
i am just happy that i can learn driving & i am of a legal age!

do you want a detailed post or a overall post?
okay.
i think i will give a more detail post.
so i w remember it even years down the road.
thats if i keep this account for so long.
HAHAHAHAHA.

thanks to everybody that gave presents.
evrybody who wished me.
and all that make time to come & celebrate my birthday w me!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU ♥
i luv luv luv all my presents.

the biggest gift i received this year is a
handsome soulmate ;D
YAYYYYYY.

i asked for comments if i lose weight,
some yes some no.
but actually i think yes,
mayb not a lot.
but i know a little at least cus i fit good in my clothes again.
& i srsly loss my appetite for the whole 3 weeks of holidays.
i only take one meal a day and i cant even finish everything.
however, i received so many chocolate this year.
i am going crazy over them.
OH! and you know my cake was so tasty,
i dint allow anybody else to eat it after i bring home.
i wanna eat them myself.
so you know, i know its gonna come back again.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA :D

i wouldnt say this year was FANTASTIC.
i expected more people, more noise and more fun.
perhaps because the place is the problem.
and i was so dumb to let emo take control on the big day itself ):
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

alright.
first night was dead.
i wanted jokes and fun but -.-
robin & gf, dawn, b & tg came.
irving came as well.
it was only fun when it got really late.
i got DRUNK
first time first time first time only okayy.
the feeling sucks lah.
i kept vomiting.

the next morning was super bad.
i had very very bad headache.
i feel like i am still drunk for almost the whole day.
went swimming w sister and all.
then waited for people to come in.

because the place is upstair & downstairs.
i had a hard time seriously entertaing all my guest.
i apologize for that and i hope they enjoy w their new company of friends :)

SPONGEBOB PRINTED BIRTHDAY CAKKKEEEE!
sooo pretty you know.
very very pretty.
i cant bear to cut it actually.
its soooo pretty!

dint drink on the second night alr.
cus i got super ):
such a spoiler right?
KNN.
could have control myself and enjoy like crazy!

nicky,dicky,b,kx & tg stayed over.
nicky got drunk like fuck.
& he end up sleeping in the ___ .
i dun want to tell you anymore.
want to know?
you call me.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

i receive a bouquet of flowers earlier in the afternoon.
w the name guess who.
was kinda curious but couldnt be bothered since that person dint put down his/her name.
the later my mother admit it was from her & it meant to be a surprise.
HAHAHAHAHAHHHAHHAHAH.
the bouquet's super sweet :D

received a super big birthday card from _____________ .
i felt so touched okay.
it was so XI XIN of them.

what else do i wanna tell you?
besides i really really love eveything i receive :D

last last.
AARON TONG WEN YANG.
10 TSK to you.
shut up!
go away.
______________________________________________

dun take me for that ride again.
i dun wanna play your game.
& i dun wanna keep repeating the same thing
cus it hurts to do so.
you never understand the pain cus you see it as a enjoyment.
please know, i am smarter now :D

i can now draw you smilexzxz!

2008-07-01T14:35:00.009+08:00

okay.
i know i havent been blogging for many many days.

i will just blog whatever i can remember.
they are not in order okay.
and they wun link to one another.
as in this post w be very messy ;D

went back to kr the other day to get my cert and all.
meet a few of them and saw a few hero.
the rest not in?

vivo w nadera :D
and we spend 3 hours chitchatingggg.
i tell you ah.
i like it when we spend time lidat.
cus we really pour out everything!
LOVE.

on the same day itself.
i ended my own pain.
i dun know how it over at the other party's side.
but yes, its time to like _________ .
so yes.....
i happy happy nowwwww :D :D :D

also also.
heros are cominggggggg.
eh, you know ah.
i am just so happy happy happy lah.
until i want to bring a small table for them.
because my mum say theres no tables.
i dun want to let them sit on the floor lah.
but i got no transport!
who can drive lorry?
HAHAHAHAHAH.
and knowing that they can come just means so much!

i started work alr.
very busy!
but still good.
i miss marmalade, really.
i am going back ltrrrrrrr.
i wna eat sticky mud pie.
♥

was reading ff's blog.
saw her mention this part that i told her yesterday.
i was saying.
when she's sad or angry last time she will keep to herself.
now, i am keeping to myself.
idk why,
but when i feel sad or angry.
i just wanna off my phone.
i find talking a super waste of timeeeeeee.
):
but i am okay nowwww!

what else do i wanna tell you?
my party is coming.
lp ksl exciteddddd.
REMEMBER TO BRING A BIRTHDAY CARD FOR ME OK?

this is for AARONTWY!
pigggggg.
all for youuuuuuu!

pictures from georgianas birthday.

this person ate too much.
SEE!
this is what happen when you go for buffet.

they just like to block me.

pictures all not in order.

now pictures when i go kr,vivo:
my hair's a bitch man.
so i only got 2 pictures for you.

goooddddbyyyeee!
i will be back as soon as i turn legal 18!

top of th world

2008-06-27T13:12:00.002+08:00

i am so in love w the song titled top of the world by the carpenters.
i always feel that old songs are way much better than those songs now.
and because of this nadera always say i got generation gap.
zzzzz.

i just went shopping for my party stuffs.
okay.
i am rushing to meet nadera and sin now!
GOODBYYE :D

drowning my sorrows again.

2008-06-26T11:33:00.003+08:00

exactly 3 months since i touched alcohol.
& i had them yesterday again,
i tried really hard not to touch them.
reallllyyy verry hard.
yea, ff's right, love has no right and no wrong.
b is right, i should choose the right person to be sad and angry over.
somehow if only i can control,
i think i w be contented w everything.
& i mean it when i say everything.
because i treasure friendship/relationship
more then shopping, eating and everything else!
for now i think i need something super exciting.
i wanna go escapeeee.
i know if i ask ff this, i will get k.
):
___________________________

i will be working alr.
cus they are short of staffs.
i w be over @ shokudo.
right spelling?
no, i dun care actually.
i loook forward cus i think it's gonna be fun.
but still, dint i just said i wanna rot @ home?
GRRRRRRR.

okay.
back to yesterday.
met up w b & we went down bk.
then to robinsons for interview.
i am a greedy girl.
i like to go for many interviews and then select the best.
HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

then sujia came to meet us.
we bus down to east coast park.
& because we srsly dun know how to go b send us there.

and shaun happy happy gace wrong directions!
class gathering was _________________ .
idk how to describe man.
it goes more to th bored side! ):

and this was the only thing that make me so excited and happy.

really, i just kept smiling and smiling and smiling!
(- ignore my eye. SUCKS )

this is the nicest picture i think.
so here it is :D

had a very long talk w sujia.
i guess we know each other better now?
:D

was so silly yesterday.
i will never wanna do it again.
this time i really promise myself.

crystal's quiz

2008-06-26T11:01:00.004+08:00

crystal love doing quiz.
and i have to copy and paste from her!
-.-

Name 20 people whom you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions till you've named 20 people.
At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

1.PYF
2.DAWN
3.NADERA
4.BOB
5.AARON
6.GEORGIANA
7.SUJIA
8.DANNY
9.SHAUN
10.BOBBY
11.FIONA
12.MELANIE
13.TECK GUAN
14.FADILAH
15.JIAN HAO
16.ZHIBING
17.DICK HEAD
18.DOG FACE
19.ALVIN
20.CANNON GOD

How did you meet 14?
- secondary school :D

What would you do if you've never met 1?
- perfect :/

What if 9 and 20 dated?
- they are people from 2 different world.

Will 16 and 17 date?
- they are brothers!

Describe 3.
- she's fat. she's nice. she's my love!

Describe 7.
- act cute says it all.

Do you know any of 12's family members?
- she has a super cute brother. that dun wanna let me talk to her unless i buy him sweets.

What would you do if 18 confess to you that he/she likes you?
- i will laugh till a roll on the floor, roll down the mountain and everywhere!

Who is 9 going out with?
- sorry. i cant tell youuuu.

When was the last time you talk to 13?
- just now.

Who is 2's favourite band/singer?
- this is a tricky question. she love our nation anthem most. ;D

Would you ever date 4?
- getting married tmrrr.

Would you ever date 1?
- idk how to tell you. is it a date or what? its something very sweet :D

Is 19 single?
- your fingers wunt be enough to count his gf, sandals & flings!

Would you ever be in relationship with 11?
- she's my darling!

School of 3.
-Republic Poly

Where does 6 live?
- cck

What is your favourite thing of 5?
- oh. he is so nice to send me home ;D

Have you ever seen 10 naked?
- no.

Do this quiz: DAWN.

talk to my foot in future!

2008-06-20T14:44:00.002+08:00

cant really remember exact details for the past few day.
i am rotting at home like siao.
although i complain.
but i am still loving every single bit of it :D

georgiana's birthday celebration was good!
sakae lunch buffet & cable car into sentosa @ night.

pictures up the next time?
not in the mood for that now.
tags w be replied another day as well.
phone w be on silent.
please do not call,use sms instead.
I AM GOING SHOPPING!
i hope it heals my heart & mindddd.

Virgin Model Shoot Over @ LA

2008-06-18T17:23:00.004+08:00

My recent photoshoot.
Did it at Los Angeles.
It was so hottttt over there!
Look at my skin now.
Become PRECIOUS BLACK!
zzz.
Do comment.
The 4th picture was at the rainforest.
Pretty fun experience.
Should have brought FF along with me!
Comment ok?

Lovelove! (:

this time i am super sureeee (:

2008-06-17T10:27:00.004+08:00

gave my hair a little trim yesterday.
aunt came and make a scene over @ my place.
f her man.
i hope she burst to death.
;DD

tmr's celebrating feifei's birthday!
okay i am gonna put up sentosa's picturee :D

_______________________________

pictures uploaded :D
i am on a diet missionn!
:DDDD

____________________________

i am super bored lahhh ):
ff changed my layout for meeee.
i just play games w b online.
received a call from one of the chef.
kinda miss their rubbish.

boredddddddddddddddddddddd!

:D

2008-06-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

okay.
i uploaded the class pictures for both SB & 5N1.
no captions cus i am rushing.
pictures of b & kx on wednesday kk?
i am going to th hospital now.

5N1 CLASS GATHERING

2008-06-16T13:14:00.005+08:00

♥

can you see how special this people is to me?
:D
they are very special!
LOVE LOVE LOVE MANY MANY!

say hello to th holidaysssss!

2008-06-16T11:20:00.008+08:00

big big hello to the long awaited holidays!
now i can stay at home w/o producing mc from polyclinc!
how greattttt? :DDD
LALALALALALALLA!

i officially took a month off work.
i wanna rot rot rot @ homeee!
& enjoy like a SCB!
i wanna bake like crazy & have as many gatherings as possible!
then i have all the time in the world to dream about my party!
♥

friday's meet up w nanie was good.
i went ard looking for dresses :D
she brought me my storybook.
i bought my tumbling tower!

my cousin got excited & we play tgh.
i am the WINNERRR
THANKS THANKS!

saturday & sunday was like a dead salted fish.
cook pasta for sherlene on saturday.
and she was like,
ONCE IN MY 16 YEARS
bake for dad as well.
they came back yesterday!
when he arrive he called home.

mum: today is fathers day. yknow?
me: yes
mum: what did you guys prepare?
me: nth lah.
dad: wanna go for fathers day dinner? interested? you pay.
me: no thanks. you pay. interested?
dad: what law is this? everything occassion also i pay. who is your government.

i bet he felt really really sad & dissppointed?
but actually,
all of us got something for him.
i place the cake i bake in his room w candles lighted.
when he came back.
he was surprised :D
he insist i bought the cake & when he was convince i bake.
he said.
if that cake was bought by him.
he will screw the baker,
happy yet wanna pretend the cake sucks.
but everyone @ home luv it lah.

my father is a chinese.
& i will slap you if you say he is an indian.

okay.
i am gonna upload all pictures i want to.
catch it at the next & previous post.

oh yes!
do you know chocolates from japan are just fking niceeeee.
see see.
this is allllll minnnneeeee!

th cat out of th bagggg.

2008-06-13T15:36:00.006+08:00

i have super alot to say,
expect a super long post if i can remember everything.
i have alot of pictures yknow.
really many leis.
but idk wtf is wrong w the computer?!?!
it just cant read my stuffs!

okay.
confirm alr, even after professional look and see.
the device just cant read my card.
& because i was lazy to charge my camera yesterday.
and took many pictures again today.
my battery pronounce dead itself.
& i cant on so again
CANT CONNECT
):

let me tell you how fun yesterday was.
told you i went sentosa w a cute little girl righttt?
i wanna show you pictures,
but not today.
maybe monday! ;D

oh wait!
did i not tell you i met a flasher?
that indian fucker just show his rotten banana to me.
right at the bus stop, how sick can he bloody get?
KNNBCCB.

okay.
back to sentosa.
i skipped class last min cus i receive msg that say.
they alr waiting like dog.
so i dint wanna spoil the little girl's fun & i am so sick of schoooolll.
changed and flew outta school :)
i went sentosa w b and kx.
somehow, its so nice to see her so happy :D
and she was so cute kay.

she told me she dun wanna get married in future.
cus guys are lazy and untidy.
if get married she always have to clear their mess and they wun help her.

smart girl!
guys are lazy worm.
how true?
but still.
i wanna get married.
anybody want me?

before we finally reach our first destination.
we walk a super super long way.
because of our super confidence.
no no, dun blame anybody!
hahahahaha.

we went underwater world.
i was so excited over that.
hahahahah (;
i always wanted to go, but somehow ppl around think its really ex.
so nobody wanna go w me ):

my hands landed on the stingray.
i actually hesistated.
i was scared lah.
told you before, i am a scary cat.
i dun even dare to play the luge thing.
hahahaha.
okay okay, laugh at me!
it was a so smooth smooth soft soft thing?
idk how to explain.

underwater world was super crowded & smelly.
cause of _________ .
kx was excited and happy?
:DD
she started taking pictures of the fishes happily.
i tell you ah.
she got good skills okay!
if her brother will say wow.
you know how good she is.

~~i'll show you when i can upload~~

seeeeee.

( i think this is the best picture!)

kx trying to capture my clownfish :D

kay, they are enjoying pushing th buttons to see lights on the crabb.

♥ ♥

b & kx

i shall show you the blur one intstead.

HAHAHA.

a babe & a hunk will b too good for your eyes lahhh.

HAHAHAHAHAH :D

went for dolphin show.
i always think dolphins are the cutest fish ever.
prolly if you watch you all agree?
idk, but i never think fishes are cute except for dolphins!
as cute as that CCB ONG.

headed for skyride.
i took it before alr lah but when i was on it yesterday,
i felt a little scared at certain height.
fyi : i am not afraid of the heights okay.
cus i stay on the 23rd stry.
:D

vivo after that.
toyrus to look for spongebob's party hat.
they dun have it there apparently.
& i wanna play uno stacko.
yes, i am sick in my big brain.

arcade was good.
i always lose those puzzle game to that monkey.
always that monkey and no one elseeee.

walk around and home!

drag myself to school today.
have to go for dragonboat la.
i very lazy and tired you know!
and again i humji lah.
cus today is friday the 13th.

i dint regret going.
i think it helps to build our class bonding as well.
but i know i was super scary cat.
when i see that its slanting.
i shout the hell outta me asking them to balance.
they laughed @ me ):
the instructor actually wanted to capsize us twice.
but he fail.
LALALAL!
cus our class too good alr.
right right right?
YESSSSS.
we won the race as well!
but the shower part was a little shit and messy.

georgiana melts @ sights of camera.
and we just cant get enough!!

:D BOBBY.

:D DEEN

USUALS w shaun & bobby

aaron you cant hide your ___ .

no matter which angle it is.

HAHAHAH :D

this is my bfd teacher.
she left alr :/

does he like a china man?

pardon my eyes for the pictures above.

i had 2 long days before this ):

@ mum's office now.
thay are comming back this sundayyy :D
i think they must realy really be enjoying themself there lah.
i also wanna go for short break leis.

i am meeting nanie for dinnnneerrr later.
she better remember my book.
or i will skin her alive!
we're going jp.
i am gonna find for the party hat.
and i think lah.
i think i will confirm buy the stacko game.
if i kept my old one properly then wun so waste $ alr lah.
but nevermind!
nanie, play w me pleaseee :D
♥

i dun wanna go work leis.
but they fucking cannot take me out
KYLB man!

slowly, i learn, i get use to it.

2008-06-12T09:42:00.003+08:00

window shopping w elephant yesterday.
home & started baking till midnight!
but it was worth it.
because....

i see them happy happy today!
:D
i love seeing people around me happy.
really.
awww. so nice shermin.
yes! now you know ;D
HAHAHAHAHA.

decided to give bowling a miss.
cus first i dun play bowling.
i cant freaking bowl.

& would you prefer going to sentosa w a cute little girl
or go bowling?
HEHEHAHAH!
of course i choose sentosa lahhh :D
okay okay.
me excited now!

dun idea why,
but recently i am loving little things.
& i smile at stupid things.
like yesterday, i couldnt take my eyes of pretty barbie dolls @ toy sections.

i will get use to everything.
grow up & learn.
learn that this is the way you love.
learn to put you down and walk off.
i will i will i will! :)

no idea how to write my misses to you.

2008-06-11T13:30:00.002+08:00

no rings.
no hello ):

school was sian yesterday.
i dun like going to school for lessons although i know
i must face the fact.
tried very hard to study for my bfd.
i can understand but just cant memorise and write them ):

so obviously i dun think i did good for my papers today
):
raining this morning.
& i cab to school w deen and dewi.
because we are staying so near, which is so good!
rainy days, i dun have to specially wake my dad up & ask him to send me.
talking about that.
MY PARENTS IS NOT IN SINGPOARE!
they are in japannn.
& they flew by A380 ):
i wanna shouttt!
i wanna go also lah.
but they just dint wanna bring me along.

i am feeling cheerie today!
because END OF PROPER LESSONNS!
then tmr will be bowling,
friday will be dragon boat!
then my 3 weeks holidayyyyyy :DDDDDDD
(- really gonna lose weight!)
when they holiday ends.
its my birthday partyyyy.
so nice right!

anyway i am so excited for my party this year.
i am turning legal 18.
& mummy gave green lights to alcohol that night!
i wanna play till i drop.
i wanna buy party hats. ( w barney printed on it! )
YAYYYYYYY!
then everybody wear.
then people come in sundresses and beachwear.
which is really really dumb.
imagine the picture of girls in sundress & guys in beach wear @ NIGHTT!
how silly is that.
but i like ;D
& i really wanna see everybody play along & have fun.

♥ ♥

know you know how excited i am?
HEROS YOU COMMMMINNNGGGG NOTTTT?

i am going to print my invitation stuff laterr!
& bake cupcakes for my classmates later!

I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE YOU!
pyf!

love jar <33333

2008-06-09T13:45:00.004+08:00

below is a super long survey tagged by crystal.
so i am gonna complete it.
went out w my 2 young siblings on saturday.
& class bbq on sunday.
it was effing nice to meet up w them lah!
pictures and a more detail post up the next time.
i am super tired and lazy.

1. What is the question that you haven't found an answer to yet?
- Why did he missed my most important request

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
- YES, when i was so tired of waiting & needed time on my own

3. What happen at 10am today?
- In the toliet, brushing my teeth ;D

4. When did you last cry?
- on the 20th of may, i think.

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
- NO THANKS TO PEANUT.

6. What do you want in your life now?
- PYF, will will never be the case. so i am wishing he will leave instead of like hanging?

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
- RUN IN THE RAIN

8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
- MY CHARLIE BROWN, GOOFY & PATRICK

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
- SKIRT.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
- ITS A SECRET.

11. Do you intend to make a relationship complicated?
- NO.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
- NO.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
- I forgot the title, it has jackie chan in it.

14. What are you proud of?
- proud of nothing at the moment.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
- today cannot, i off work liao. ( received in bangkok! )

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
- ZHUI HUO YI CHI

17. Do you have any nicknames?
- ask dawn for them

18. What does your last recieved text message say?
- what happen to him? come school tmr :)

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
- 12am?

20. Are you currently happy?
- no. havent really been for lonnng

21. Who gives you best advice?
- teachers?

22. Are you afraid of the dark?
- not really.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
- no one.

24. Is anything bugging you now?
- Yes!

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
- any souls from %n1

26. Do you wear toe socks?
- Nope.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
- my mother

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
- OF COURSSE!

29. What annoys you most in a person?
- soil diggers

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
- not a crush, more than that ;D

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
- Nope.

32. What is the color of your room?
- purple,blue,green.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
- no.

34. Do you believe in the saying 'talk is cheap'?
- YES, soil diggers does that. they talk big as well.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
- NOBODY LANDS THEIR ASS ON MY BED.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
- NO. prolly some ahneh.

38. Do you have a life?
- i think i srsly have no life. its so no meaning.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
-I think i did.

40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
- there's no song in my profile. they song plays in my heart!

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
- pyf! i dreamt that he came dinner w my family & he cook for us!
that was super nice!

42. Last time you smiled?
- real smile, LONG TIME AGO.

43. Have you changed this year?
- Yes, i changed a lot, i wish i dint.

44. What are you listening right now?
- Nothing.

45. Are you talking to someone when you are doing this?
- NO.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
- OPEN LAH. you close meh?

47. Is there a quote you live by?
- love is not about possesion.

48. Do you want someone you can't have?
- YES.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
- recorder? HAHAHAH.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in week?
- SKIPPED SCHOOLLL.

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
- just got home, i think.

52. Are you happy with your love life now?
- NO LAH.

( i am getting bored of this survey! )

53. What song best describe your love life?
- cant think of any now.

54. Does the person know you like him/her?
- yes.

55. Who always make you laugh?
- my FF dawn ong chee bye.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
- Chinese, hokkien

57. Favourite website?
- complicated-words.blogspot.com

58. What's your middle name?
-wait! what is middle name?
shermin tay xue yi.
you choose.
HAHAHA.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
- home/school/home/school. which one?

60. What do you think you are like?
- your mother.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
- I'll rather die on my own.

62. Where have you been today?
- POLYCLINIC!

63. What game do you play often?
- Nah, I don't play any games.

64. Who are you missing right now?
- who do you think.

65. If you've to choose between friend and loves, who will you choose?
-I want both. PLEASEEE.

66. What are doing right now?
-doing this stupid thing lah.

67. Which primary school are you from?
- QIFA Primary

68. Name 3 colors that you like?
- BLACK, blue, pink.

69. What emotion you like to show?
- ;)

70. What is your life to you?
-something dull and boring.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
- Keep it to myself & idk throw tempers?

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-i am not online.

73. Who do you admire most?
- Nobody.

74. Which month are you born in?
-JULY. its coming soon!

75. How are you feeling right now?
- usual.

76. What is the time now?
- tiger time lah.

77. Where are you now?
- coffee shop w wireless network. HAHAHA

78. What color did you use to dye your hair?
- brown? black? shall try white!

79. Why are you doing this test?
- because crystal wants me to.

80. What do you do when you are moody?
-throw tempers, keep to myself & CRYY ( sometimes )

81. At which age you wish to get married?
-25

82. Who is more important to you?
- everybody is the same.
as long as your are part of me, you are IMPORTANT.

83. Do you think you have enough confident?
- 50 50.

84. Who is the person you trust most?
-my FF & mother!

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
- yes, i saw!

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
-it will be what i just dreamt of? HAhaha :d

87. What is your goal for this year?
- gpa 4. OR GO TO HELL.

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
- BULL SHIT

89. What feeling do you love most?
- when you are around?

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
-YES.

91. What feeling you hate the most?
-Being left alone.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- YES.

94. Who cares for you the most?
- MY FRIENDS & PARENTS!

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- idk at the moment.

96. What are some stuffs you couldn't let go now and forever?
- not forever, but maybe just now?

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
- not whole life, i am just turning 18. mayb, playing your gamE?

98. What would you feel that on one no longer cares for you?
- wait. i dun understand your question.

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
- GO FOR BREAK UP LAH.

100. What do you want now?
- SLEEP, study BFD.

i am suppose to remove a qustion and add one.
so this question is specially for my CCB FRIEND.

101. WHO IS CCB?
CCB is DAWN ONG.
she is my bestfriend/favourite friend.
she is the nicest friend you can ask for, although i feel like slapping her sometimes & her advices are really blunt. her words can really pierce through you, still, i love her ♥ i must say we have really been very very patience towards one another, especially now when i am facing shitxzxzx! she is the one that can make me laugh anytime anywhere, those are the only moments when my problems will get off my mind. thats about it. she's a babe. here's her blogspot : dawns-journal.blogspot.com

CB. I LURBBBEEE EUUUU WORRX.
HAHAH

love sick

2008-06-06T14:55:00.005+08:00

i threw a big rock off my heart
after sharing it w my goood friend ;D
big problem still works only w him.
really.

SHOUT OUT: i saw germaine just now over at clementi mrt. w 3 'fishes' she HOOK. OHMYYY! see how great she is now. & she shouted at me :(

know,
i hate soil diggerrs & i am srsly so proud of tarzan.
he is eliminating them!
ONE BY ONEEE.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~

okay.
went to the singapore flyer place yesterday,
i dint go on the ride.
idk why.
i think its some thing very normal only or?
idk.
HAHAHAHA.
georgiana was saying she will never wanna go again.
so i think twice then both fiona and i agreed on not taking. so we dint take lo.
dinner at the popeyes.
the food ok only lah.
:D

♥ a big & a small lahh ):

& deen's psp game
puzzle bobble & crazy taxi.
kept me company like crzy,
he is so nice okay.
he allow me to bring it hommme ;)
♥ thank you!
and i know, ppl are unhapy about it.
but too bad.
what can you do?
LALAALLAA ~

school's short day today.
because its friday!
i know lame ;D
but never mind.

i very happy leis.
i got the chalet alr.
:DDDD
so its on the 5th of july.
i am so looking forward to it.
i am going to start inviting!
so no one will say :
1.) i got work leis.
2.) i need to go out w my mother.
3.) i got family gathering
4.) MAYB.

you coming?

tmr will be home day i think.
i really wanna study for my BFD.
then sunday will be BUBBLE Q.

looking forward to next week alr actually.
our class is going for bowling session together as one whole class.
so nice right?
then we are gonna go dragon boating on friday.
i dun wanna go for that actually.
i scared.
yes, i am a scary cat.

( i joined archery, as you all know.
have you all seen this picture before? )

:D a random picture!

these are pictures for my zoo outing.

georgiana, look at these pretty elephants.
i know you are close to them :D

see this fucker stepping on his child.
he keep rubbing him/pressing him on the ground lah ):

saving the best to the last.
this has got to be the best!

you know best who it resembles!
no name mention. HAHAHAH!
he is KIAO KA-ing!
caps in hokkien please!

BOOOHOOOOO

2008-06-04T10:30:00.003+08:00

boooooo!
why is school so boring?
i am so sleepy today):

OHHH!
shaun is back in school today :D
& we are in the same colours today.
i know you dun know what it means and why we think it's so special.

we wore the same colours together for one whole week before.
HAHAHAH.
wait!
you understand a not?
you still dunt right?
never mind.
shaun does :DD

BFD lesson = free period.
SW lessons = free period
LS lessons = free period.
OFA period = free period
AF period = naggy session.

pleaseeeee.
tell me, whats school for?
why are they so tight on attendance?
):
lidat cannot skip class.
but in school = to waste time!

i am meeting fiona for dinner tmrrr ♥
i hope it works lah cus she's ending school at 6 over nyp.
i am ending at 4? at clementi!

yes yess!
5/1's BUBBLE QQQQ this sunday!!

_______________________________

:D

i am going on a date w fiona tmr!
she was just asking if i am attached alr.
so i was like if i'm attached you think you will still get to date me?
HAHAHAHAAH ♥
told her i wanna go home and change first & she said she dun mind
me in my school uniform.
so sweet right?
but still, we are going somewhere nice.
so i am considering ):
ohhh.
we are going to the singapore flyer place!
okay okay.
i am super EXCITED :D

no matter what happens.

2008-06-03T09:53:00.001+08:00

REPLIES.

DAWN: YES big family, you are the one with red ass (:HAHAHAH! are you excited? we are going shopping!
SHAUN: wait! you changed? what?! you changed your mind? :DDDD YAYYY! thats the way man! like that we can so QIAO wear same colour for str 5 days again! (;
GERMAINE: yes :D you too okay. i am thinking about which flavour alr. HAHAHA.

♥

i am srsly pissed off w the management team yesterday.
GRRRR!

nevermind.
i am going shopping w my ff later (:
finally after 94753798453985 yearss.
serious. before school start i was busy w work.
after school start i am busy w both work and school.
YES! SHOPPING W THAT PCB.
she is a tai tai fyi.
she only goes to posh posh places.
i think we are going vivo.
are we?

so like today, idk why i am not working?
as in my name wasnt in.
dun wanna ask either.

till then.
love.

CHIT CHATXZXZXZ BOX!

2008-06-02T11:24:00.005+08:00

SHUAN: you dun pretend pretend. you also using okayy! HEHAHAH! put apple in her pipe ;D spray her screen & give her bus tyres! YAYYY! we're the champions!
FADILAH & ATIQAH: YES ;) but it's sec 3 work lah. any blind chicken would have done well):
KELLY: ya lahh. you so fierce. i realise i missed out the nicest picture! HAHAH.
OPPS: you dun know me well yet lah. i dun wear size a please. thats srsly too small for me. think again. think hard!
VIVIAN: alrights!
GIANA: HELLO :DD you big grey stone ( elephant! )
NADERA: YES YES! a dozen for you? give it to you on 8th june alright? ♥

INSERTS LOVVVEE.

2008-06-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

i received a super big piece of good news today.
i was so happy upon hearing it.
no, you wun understand why ;D
ff & i felt the same & i am sure people who know it will as well.
god has eyes (:
he removed his sunglasses alr!
:DDDDD

had family outing yesterday.
went to the zooooo.
no comments on that.

i srsly dun feel like going work later.
how?
):

you flew with the air weeks ago

2008-05-31T11:18:00.004+08:00

:D is this picture pretty?

i think it is you know. i think cus of the colours.

he's a vain pot!

HELLO LOVE LOVE!
alrights.
today will be massive picture's post.
but words first okay?
or shld i add pictures to those old post?
ok. i think i should.
so i shall edit them later.
or shld i not?
HAHAHAHA.
the last time pictures appear was exactly 2 weeks ago?
( i added pictures in the old post alr. just a few.
cus blogger's v slowww! )

before i start.
did superstar die from famous amossie cookie?
i havent receive his call since then.
you are suppose to tell me if its nice.
gonna demote you to cleaner!

had my NAPFA test on wednesday.
i srsly think this school has screwed up system!
GRRRRR.
thinking about it just make my blood boil like siao.
they are shit shit shit shit shit.
big super big lump of SHITXZXZXZXZ!
know the pull up thing for girls?
there are girls who do they snake style or arms not even straight.
& the teachers just count.
and they get like 20plus.
they are suppose to get Z.E.R.O!!
&^$#!@^*
nevermind.
& i caught the teacher cheat for the shuttle run timing lahhhh.
EEEEEEE!
then we had our 2.4 str after.
ehhhhhh. tired alr leis!
FFFFFFFFFFFFFF!

missed school on thursday.
whole body pain horrrr.

i baked cupcakes 2 days in a row.
super nice, i am so addicted.
HAHAHAH.

i think its srsly silly to take your life for your bf/gf?
someone close to my heart actually tried doing that.
):

had my OFA exam yesterday.
the computer in school is effing slowwwwwww.
really.
it hangs and hangs!
please hang me to death for not studying hard
and ended up in the haunted house!
( slaps myself man! )
i dun wanna get a B.
i will go crazy man.
i wanna get a A.

goodnews:
I SCORED FULLMARKS FOR MY ACCOUNTING TEST!
will you will you will you love me more?
HAHAHAHEHEHAHA :DDD

i thought it w be.

2008-05-27T14:14:00.002+08:00

yesterday was 0/5.
i thought it will be like how we use to be lah.
going for supper.
then we will go home tgh.
then we will have good heart talks.
how nice would it be?
but it went the other way round.
sucha shitxzxz.

thinking of everything just make me wanna
keep quiet& not talk.
nothing to share at all.
i just read through all our messages.
how silly it was.
i srsly wished i dint play your dumb game.
GRRRRR.
i know ppl who know will say.
IGNORE ALL CALL.
dun talk cus none of you understand at all.
no matter how much you think you do.
i am telling you, you dunt.
really.

like for example the earthquake thing in china.
many of us feel sad, they cry.
they pity them.
but hello, seriously how we feel is completely different from the victims.
they feel the pain deep in their heart cus they lost their love ones.
you dunt right? so the pain you feel is because you see them lost their love one.
so you think you understand again?
i am telling you.
YOU DONT.
you understand yourself best, no one else beats you in that.

prolly i sound harsh here.
but the message i wanna get across is
i know you people care, i thank you for that. i know each and everyone of you wants the best for me. again i thank you for that. i know i am wrong, i am in a disadvantage. if only its so easy. i would have get it done long long ago

my post is always about the same thing.
):

i dreamt of alvin yesterday (i think)
i think its him.
it feels like someone else.
but still i think its him.
he apply lipgloss.
HAHAHAHAH.
he is always my escape.
but of course he's a shit that makes me mad always.

i am having my PE EXAM tmr.
HAHAHAHAH.
oh! know what?
there's theory paper as well.
so dumb right.
PE also need to remeber facts.
CRAZY.
btw, they call it SW here.
SPORTS & WELLNESS

i am looking forward to lunch w mummy & ah koon later!
hopefully, class end early & i can make it there on time
:DD
today's the last day i am gonna see mummy alr.
she leaving at the end of this week.
):
she's v mean.
thats the reason i love her actually.
she says that & i agree.

i know aaron will be here tonight.
so i wanna thank him here ;)
my phone's gonna die on me anytime.
& i got work tonight so he kindly
change phone w me.
SO NICE RIGHT?
but he selfish lahhhhhh.
dun want to lend me his ______ .
hahahhaha.
i dun wanna paiseh him here (:

i think thats all.
♥

you spell my love.

2008-05-26T09:55:00.007+08:00

pontan
unless i got more exciting things.
because i love my friends!
i love the way i can strike up conversation w anyone.
but still sticking close w my 3 great companions.
i am srsly so thankful to have met such wonderful, patient, understanding friends.
no matter how i throw my temper.
no one walks away.
how can i not love and appreciate them?
♥

i played badminton w the usual last friday!
fun like crazyy.
MR HENG i am a sports girl now.
HAHAHAH.

went sentosa yesterday.
the sun was good for the first hour.
then it poured like crazy ):
vivo then home.
had a little tiny bit of sun burn from the colour i see.
but i feel so pain all over.
& i have to behave like those princess.
abit pain abit pain.
HAHAHAHAH ;D

i am going work today.
& this is the only thing that keep my hearts beating
faster then usual since yesterday (:
feeling so nervous today lahhhhh ♥ ♥ ♥
because.... eh MYOB!

i just get back BFD test.
)':

waiting for my accounts test marks!

( i know i need to add pictures to my blog. aaron have been asking for it since last week & i always go tmr tmr tmr , until he can answer on my behalf. he is calling me no life. pictures up SOON i promise ;D )

you're not the one

2008-05-23T12:00:00.007+08:00

i just receive a message from my sister
thats says she got first in class.
WELL DONE :D
but she actually mention herself lah.
that her marks was sucky.
& her class is weak as well.
so you better dun be too proud ah BITCH.
HAHAAHEHEHHAHA ;D

yesterday was srsly a super bad day.
my mood was -100000 ):
like i walk out of class anytime.
i sleep & i ignore people.
i start screaming.
i felt so guilty at the end of the day.
and i am so thankful to have met goodfriends.
they actually put up w it & try to make me smile.
THANK YOU ♥

mood today is not good as well.
but i tell myself.
i cant be like yesterday (:
cus its unfair to people ard.

had accounting test today.
i manage to balance.
i srsly pray hard for a 90% at least.
or even better if i get full marks.

if i get full marks will all of you love me more?
HAHAHAHAH.
ff & i made a lame deal.
we are suppose to jump down frm 3rd floor if we do well.
we're JUMPING FOR JOYYYY!
sound lame & stupid i know (:
we havent really spend time together for every long alr hor CB.
lets go cafe cartel next week.
ON BOH?
friday okay?

i am so excited for sunday(:
i am flying to get pretty tan lines!
HAHAHAH ;D

i wish there's no gap between us. so we can share all our problems. so you will understand me. so i can tell you my results. so you can jia you me. so you can share my joys & sorrows . so you can this, so you can that (: i wish everything can be so pretty-ly official. so it will be easier for us. so i will be happier. so i dun have to cry. so i dun have to sad. so i dun have to feel the pain. so you dun have to hide. so we can spend quality time together. but since its not offical. why did you choose not to fuck off? when i found my courage, i chased you away after considering for so long. why did you pretend nothing was mention? and make me fall again? i am trying very hard to stand on my own. spare me please, will you?w your own mouth you are telling me to find someone else but how am i suppose to do so if you are not going to leave. i know you feel no more, me too. then why hold on? i believe we both alr felt the difference. sighsss. ):

2008-05-22T09:34:00.002+08:00

WARNING: this post is FIRE!

do something to the sun please.
ITS KILLING ME ):
my mood go downhill each time i feel sticky & stuffy.
i hate it lah.
and this bloody school has air con rooms.
but air con spoil.
fuck this haunted house man!

& why is money so important.
no money cannot survive!
everything is increasing.
why my allowance never increase.
actually i think i am taking alot alr.
but also not enough & i still think i deserve more.

i wanna do so many things now.
although the sun is killing me but i wanna go for a good tan.
i wanna get pretty tan lines ;D
i wanna pick up badminton & go gym.
i rlly need to lose weight this time.
but i am always going for good food.
buffet, fastfood for lunch.
HOW TH HELL AM I GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!
skipping meals cant help.
but when i eat.
I CANT STOP!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

yes, ff was mentioning that my mood hasnt been good.
there's just so many things running inside me.
sometimes i find no more to explain them.
or when i know how to explain,
i think no one will understand.
then how?
sometimes when i complain to my mother thru sms when i am in school.
she reply HAHA
i will go NOT FUNNY
its really not funny lah.
i am pissed offfff!

i got the hell bloody unfair biased class advisor.
she's good & delicated i must say.
but she's shit.
( contradicting myself? )

i wanna be a student council.
back in KR.
i dint dare cus i dint dare to go up stage.
so i left.
now i wanna be, she throw this into my face.
not anyone that sees the section head before.
f her the other way round!!
she's the one that says i wanna let her see if she approve,
if she approve i wun disturb you ( with a (: on her face )
so i went w her.
SO NOW WHAT?
did she just put a trick on me?
that sly fox.

the she allow another guy to go in.
w the reason : he got this, he got that.
WALAOOOOOOOOOOO!

i srsly feel like slapping someone NOW!

this week is test week.
so many test.
i think 3.
and idk is it progress test or CA.

they cant really teach good here.
i will say i have alr got used to it ):
so sad right.
SIGHSS.

so imagine a ite student taking bus carrying books in her hand reading?
that was me today.
the last time i felt like this was ......
when i was having my O's?

idk why.
i just dun wanna fail!
but i cant study.
i know if i put the word wish again.
mr chan is gonna scream into my face.
HAHAHAHAH.
so i will say.

wait & see man.
i will show everybody a GPA 4.
but imagine if i score less then 3.8
i will kill myself man.
mayb just stop studying in this ghost palace.
& do private?
GRRRR.

___________________________________

okay.
this will be a lighter part.
hahahah ;D

yesterday was teckguan's birthday.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
<3333333.

class ended early.
so the 2 women went over to my place &
they self-entertained.
HAHAH.
i dun care lah.
as long as they make themselves at home (:

changed and went out to meet kelly.
i know her for like 3 years plus alr?
we do heart to heart talks sometimes.
we share secrets but we never meet before lah.
so yesterday we met for the first time!

i THOUGHT she's some gentle women.
she so fierce lah.
HAHAHAHA.
hor jie hor?

jie went to get his prezzie.
i went to get icecream cake.
then we went to sakura (:

we planned 2 surprises for him lah.
the first one he expected.
the 2nd one,
the ________ waitress spoil it.
#$!@#*

the icecream cake is the TASTY-EST thing of allll ♥

i think he really felt happy.
i got pictures.
but not w me today.
prolly all pictures w be up tmr okay (:

okay.
i am gonna study for my BFD test now!
lotsa loves.

there's really so so so & so much i wanna say to you.
i cant help myself.
cant you like help me?
i really feel so _______ .

if dreams have wings

2008-05-20T09:56:00.003+08:00

UPDATES.

i am actually have alot of picture to post.
but i cant find time & i left my camera at home today.
apologise for the latest post.
mood was on roller coaster.
please dun ask me why.
i cant explain.

perhaps it would be better if you f off for good?

THURSDAY

the class celebrated for shaun ;)
we bake cuppys for him.
it turn out good and pretty although we expected better.
the taste is good as well.
rate it 5/5 for first attempt.
:D

- we are suppose to act gangster!
hahahah.
they i ahlian look alike -.-

something wrong w my hair today ):

this is shaun's cupcake :D

FRIDAY

we bring the cuppy to school & shaun was sick!
):
aaron & i spend the whole of our OFA lesson
deciding where should we go for buffet.
only to remember at the very last mintue i am having mothers' day dinner later.
grrr!
felt so ____ & guilty lah.
couldnt decide on archery and interact club.
so i choose both for today i went archery tgh w aaron & georgiana ;D
we had this ' CRAVING ' for badminton but couldnt find rackets.
stayed at archery for a while & we ran off for swensens!
♥ this has to be love i tell you.
only this made me laugh for the day.
you know my volume.
i laugh effing loud due to some stupid games.
georgiana had to carry this this that writes:

I AM FROM CLEMETI ITE
georgiana
ITE ROCKS

mothers' day dinner after that.
the bill came up to like 1101.10$
which i think is not worth :/

SATURDAY

really tired today.
had CIP over at west mall.
the organisation actually dint prepare enough tin.
HOW DUMB?
so we end up kissing MAC GRIDDLES.
and land our ass on MOS BURGER while killing time.
played stupid stuffs at arcade.
kept winning so i kept smiling :DDDD
HAHAHAHEHEHEHA.
dawn came over to bake.
went out to meet nadera.
was a very short meet up.
think cus i am very tired.
the meet up was dead.
painted nails at hollywood secrets ♥

SUNDAY
home.

MONDAY
georgaina woke me up at 9 plus.
saying she wants to eat KFC.
-.-
a nice girl like me.
woke up & accompanied her of course.
then we bake cupcakes again ;D

i know this post is shitty wordy.
but i cant help it lah.
i will put in pictures sometime later (:
i am going for LUNCH SOOOON!

you dun know how it feels at all

2008-05-16T11:21:00.003+08:00

FUCK.

2008-05-15T10:27:00.004+08:00

actually, its still very early now.
so i prolly wun have much to say.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAUN!
18th alr ;)
old MONK!
hahahahah ;D

( he's shit. he says my hair looks like some poodle dog! )

i am baking cuppy tonight!
i am so excited
:D

& if possible i am meeting heros for lunch.
putting my life in danger.
HAHAHAHAH!

dawn set a rule yesterday that say i must mention her in my blog every now and then.so...

I AM TELLING ALL OF YOU.
dawn is fking RICH.
please rob her, dun mind joining you.
;D

elephants fly?

2008-05-14T15:24:00.005+08:00

TAG REPLIES

t DOMON : who tell you I celebrating my birthday this Saturday? See lah, you love me and you dun know my birthday. I WANNA BREAK WITH YOU. ahhahahahaha ;D it's not this Saturday heros, all of you will be invited. Sure will!
t sujetha : firstly domon is not handsome, he stinks. But you have no idea how much I LURBE HIM. I lurbbe him deep deep w all my heartxsxs! hahahahah. i prefer none. but would appreciatate if you can GO AWAY!
t fadilah : you know who are you? yes, you are fadilah! I love you lahhhh ♥ x1000
t dawn: yes thank you. I am going on diet. You are so good to sacrifice for me. Yes, you should eat more! HAHHAHAHA. You rich what TAI TAI.

_______________________________________________

HELLO ;D

Let me update you about my school.
I am actually doing accounting now.
& know what?
I am doing T accounts, trial balance.
Just had my t account test a few days ago.
Guess guess guess how much I get?
Guess lah.
GUESSSSS.
I scored 32/35!
Hahahah.
i never score so pretty-ly in KR before lah!

Had PE just now.
I played BADMINTON!
the last time I played was like last year?
actually I am not a sports girl.
i dislike the sights of balls and that will be the last thing
i will ever wana play with.
( DUN THINK DIRTY LAHHHH )
ask dawn man, i think she will totally agree with me.
bcause she wants a basketball outing, which is a str no from me!
back to kr.
it was this retarded little boy that taught me.
i actually gave up alr, cus i cant even serve.
than this little boy came to coach me.
& his retarded way of calling JIE JIE, JIE JIE.
actually made me play good.
HAHAHAHHA

RETARDED little boy, do you still wanna play w me again?
i wanna play w you!

5 years in kr.

our PE RULE:

1) tuck in shirt
2) tighten shoelaces
3) no watch

my CURRENT SCHOOL dont practice this lah.
but i will still do it when i have my pe lessons ;D
so MR KOH...
( BIG SMILE TO YOU )

& calling all heros.
ITE NEED PE TEACHERS LEIS.
PAY ALSO HIGHER.
IT'S AWESOME BEING A TEACHER HERE.
for more information on why, please ask mr KH!

pizza hut with a few of my classmates today!
long time since i had lunch with a big group ;)
i think the last time was dinner with jh & gang at j's place.

today is a bad day!
raining like cows and elephant!
i got caught in the rain so many timeeessss.
but that gave us a excuse good enough to be late for class.
HAHAHA.

i actually book my chalet alr.
i book early hoping will like SURE GET IT.
in the end, they still need to do those ballot shitxzxz.
which means, dun even know can get anot ):

tmr's gonna be a very nice day!

still on?

2008-05-12T11:32:00.002+08:00

i actually forgot all about mother's day this year.
my bad.
but its like so fast?
shaun save my day lah.
idwant to tell you why.
THANKS MONK!

oh.
anyway, pola has nice cakes ;)
i just found out.
i always thought the are only good in sugar rolls.
my bad again!
:/

i am so crazy over baking of cupcakes.
but i always dun have time :(

did i tell you,
i am starting to love school.
not the SCHOOL of course.
i love my friends lah.

i receive a note from one pretty girl today.
she told me i always make her day.
i have this very very noisy and irritating laughter.
but its always a key to peoples day :D

& i always see my friends having tears in their eyes.
tears of joy okay!
as in they laugh until water drip out from the face balls.
HAHAHAHAHAH.

so all in all.
i am enjoying my days in school lame-ing.
NADERA i still love you the same.
♥
saturday will come very very soon!

have decided to celebrate my birthday again this year.
i like crowds.
only if they are my FRIENDS.
as in i dun like those chinatown crowds.
hahaha.
i like my special day to be noisy!

VENUE : CHALET!

______________________________

you sure you do like you did?
& you will be now & to the end?
(- lost angel kiss )

long long ago when cupid strikes

2008-05-10T12:26:00.005+08:00

hello ;D

alot of pictures today.
trying to put up as little as possible alr.
i made brownie yesterday.
first attempt.
something to be proud about, the taste is really GOOOD.
but the look is 0/5 ?
look..

dawn click well with my classmates.
intense bitching and gossiping the past few days.
I MUST STOPPP.
nah, i know i cant stop.
okay, i must cut down.
HAHAHAH.
know whats the amazing thing, the guys actually joined.
they are not as angel as they wish they are.
HAHAHAHA.
& now aron title me the gossip queen of my class.

was talking about impression.
they actually though dawn and i are those that
clubs, smokes & no longer carry V plate.
infact we are none from the above.
and it sucks when its so hard to convince them.
not just them but many others
-.-

real busy with school.
the hours are so long :/
& i can hardly go out for good food.
i srsly want some sushi!

okay.
PICTURESS.

pictures taken in genting.
colourful views from my room.

♥ comfy bus.

meet up with nadera for starbucks ;D

singapore mint with the class.

my new friends!

♥ featuring :
GEORGIANA
SUJIA
SHAUN
ARON
FATIAH

maybe, maybe not

2008-05-06T09:08:00.002+08:00

i am not petty.
i just dun wanna talk.
somehow i wish you can see from my face.
so you can just shut up and get lost!

):
sighs.
will be away for awhile.
idk when i will be back.

till then.

you are my sunshine.
what a common phrase.

♥

2008-05-05T11:16:00.003+08:00

no title today.
nothing running in my mind :)
HAHAH!

woke up late & i had to cab to school :(

back from genting.
i srsly enjoyed over there.
although i dint do good shopping.
i dint go the THRILLING JUNGLE. ( hahahahah)
i spend 1/3 of the time sleeping.
but its just soo sooo sooo nice :D
not forgetting my hotel.
its fantastic i tell you.
very comfy :D & i like the view from my room.
i love the toilet mosssst.
the coach was as wonderful.
had my very own mini tv.
okay.
random & that summarise my trip!
pictures up next time okay.

i have a new storybook in my bag now.
and thats the only thing that will keep me so so so occupied ♥
i am working tonight.

i srsly dun mind being busy and tired.
cus i wanna be occupied from the moment i open my eyes till the time i go to bed.
i want no seconds alone!

please, thank you.

2008-05-01T12:45:00.005+08:00

a few awesome pictures to colour my blog post today!

:)the first picture is my new class.

class SB.

the second picture is my fatest friend.

nevermind her size actually i love her the same!

HAHAHAH :D

& lastly, geogiana.

she's my new friend.

a very nice girl. i tell you she is really very nice.

& she's single.

HAHAHAHAH.

i am at home rotting today.

i got the message send across alr.

something i am relieve about.

however,

what does not replying mean?

dun you have something to say as well.

if thats the case then good.

dun call me anymore.

really.

your call melts me all the time...

goodbye!

& this is me when i was cute and pretty.

hahahaha.i seriously think this picture is pretty.

so i am being thick skin here.

hahahah ;D

i wish i was

2008-04-30T15:05:00.003+08:00

i wish i was some awesome fire fighter.
that will fight the fire to the end.
well,
a good note to everyone in the world.
i am awake from the pile of shit now.
just waiting for the right time to send the message across.
i planned to get it done today.
only if you dint call.

tmr is a public holiday.
but i cant find something good to occupy my night today ):
all i ever need today is just some awesome laughs to fill me till tmr.
and until i stand up once more.

sometimes its really nice to meet up w important people :D
ricky was admitted to the hospital due to his bones.
should have drank more milk isnt it?
HAHAHAHAH!

visted him w miss fahizah.
a nice catch up w both of them ♥
& (tink) i found lights ;)

dint attend school yesterday.
really sick this time.
HAHAHAH.

anw i wun be in singapore over the weekends.
at first i wish i could stay in singpore.
but now i am saying this.
i cant wait to escape from everything and take a good good break!

till then.
♥

over-rated!

2008-04-28T11:49:00.004+08:00

YAYY!
i completed another storybook over the weekends.
my weekends was shitty at home.
was suppose to be on catering lah.
last min cancel & i have no other plans, like so last min.
tsk.
anyway i am having black hair now (:

i seriously feel like kicking the teachers here.
they suck lah.
dun call yourself a teacher if you F-ing cannot teach.
its sooo irritating to have teachers teaching the wrong things.
AGAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN!
mum & dad are finally talking about private schools for me now.
should have done that earlier isnt it?
-.-
then again.
its so expensive.
its like 9k for 15months.
& idk how recognise their cert is.
grrrrrr!
well. complaining doesnt help at all );

i cant wait to see you on a bright tuesday!

reaching out

2008-04-25T11:15:00.003+08:00

shortest day in school today!
i got caught for my hair the moment i step into school
& ended up in some dickheads office.
ridiculous people.
then when i was having lessons.
there was another spot check,
this time they wrote down my name.
how the hell am i suppose to change my hair colour within an hour?
SHIT!
if you are so free.
go for lessons!
stop walking around.
GRRRR.
useless.

time table change.
& most of the days i am ending late ):
went back to pantry yesterday.
HAHAHAH!
i am starting back work alr.
on 5th may :D

short post for today.
here's the credit for baby dana's picture i posted yesterday :D
http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/d/danajoysim/
go take a look if you wanna know who she is ♥

memories arent as clear/fresh as they used to be.
seems like they are fading away.
i see myself reaching out for you

she thought you knew

2008-04-24T08:54:00.006+08:00

turning 30days old.
this 30days seem so long and far.
time is passing so slowly prolly cus is not sweet and good?
crashing down again.
nothing seems to heal it this time :/

realise i am very different now.
hahaha.
i am no longer a good girl okay?
nooo. actually maybe i still am.
depends on situation lah!
:D

went for movie yesterday.
forbidden kingdom.
i think the movie is good.
& i alr dun mind watching those fighting fighting show okay.
hahahahahah.
although...
although although i am not very into fighting shows.
;)
met zb after that.
chit chats!
oh!
i had pe yesterday as well after 6 to 7 months plus plus?
just ran for 5 mins ONLY.
and my leg hurts today!
):

i am so sleepy in school now.
& i am having a test later ):

before i go.

cute not cute not cute not?
SOOO cute right?
very cute hor?
this picture made my day.
i swear!
♥

you wanna know who she is?
okay.
i dun wann tell you!
goodbye!

so far away

2008-04-21T12:24:00.003+08:00

♥
i am so into reading storybook lately.
idk why.
perhaps some crazy sickness.
& reading storybook is not boring okayy!

was just complaining sometime ago that i am so bored with my current shit.
& i got entertained to the max, causing me to laugh like a retard 3 days in a roll.

i went back to KR.
then i met my lovely lovely friend on saturday.
imagine : after i finish eating.
idk how and why.
my spoon flew all the way back to the table behind.
landed there and drop on the floor again.
the lady on that table got shock.
are you laughing?
HAHAHAH.
i laughed till i cry.

took out prints.
prolly you will be thinking right.
what century alr.
still take out prints.
but it was seriously awesome!
cus we wrote messages in it :D
right nanie?
LOVE YOU MAN!
& you owe me an url or something?
HAHAH ♥

i added colour to my nails yesterday.
however was rather pissed off.
cus before i fully dry up,
i went around knocking onto things alr.
& now its so ugly!

fyi: i am very hungry now.
HAHAHHEHEHAHA!

should i take up photography as a cca.
or should i go take up a course?
anw no pictures at the moment.
sometime later perhaps :)

GOODBYE!

just a loser in this case always.
you got it!